Chapter 620
Judy’s POV
I wasn’t really prepared for us to leave the pack. But as soon as we crossed the borders, I started to feel even more uneasy. Most of the drive was quiet; I kept stealing glances at Spencer, but his expression was unreadable. It was unlike him.
“Spencer, is everything okay?” I asked him when I couldn’t take the silence anymore.
He blinked and then glanced at me.
“Yeah, why do you ask?”
“You just seem off,” I tell him. “Unlike yourself.”
“I’m fine,” he replied. he gave me a smile, though it didn’t reach his eyes. He seemed almost nervous about something, or maybe it was my own nerves attacking the pit of my belly.
I decided not to worry too much about Spencer; he was Spencer. He was my first friend after Luna Lucy. He made me feel welcomed to not only the team but to the pack as well. I might have only known him for a short time, but he became my best friend.
I relaxed in my seat a little as I was reminded of that fact. Spencer wouldn’t do anything to hurt me.
My mind drifted back to Gavin. I was still so pissed off and hurt that he would barge in here and order me back to his pack. We still had so much to talk about; it’s not like I was going to jump on the opportunity to take in this pack. I wanted to return with him; yes, I’ll miss the friends I’ve made in this pack, but I miss my other friends even more. I would kill for a girl’s night with Nan and Irene. They were my best friends, and I wanted to tell them everything that was going on in my life. I miss my family too; I realized how rash I was in leaving when I spoke to my mom on the phone the other night. I missed her so much, and I know leaving as quickly as I did hurt both her and my father.
I was so quick to leave my life behind to escape something that hurt me that I didn’t stop to think about those I was hurting in return. I was being just as selfish, and I realized that this past week.
I was also aware of the fact that I’m carrying Gavin’s baby.
Instinctively, I put my hands on my belly; it was still flat, a couple of months away from possibly popping. I still couldn’t believe a baby was growing inside of me. My baby. Gavin’s baby. My heart squeezed.
I was scared that Gavin didn’t want me, and in turn, he wouldn’t want our baby. I was scared that I was going to end up having to do this alone. didn’t know anything about being a parent; yeah, I had amazing parents growing up who treated me like their own, even if I was adopted. I had great role models… but could I really be that for another living being?
What Gavin said earlier was cruel. I wanted us to have a real conversation, but instead he jumped down my throat and ordered me home. He didn’t care about me all he cared about was his control over me. My heart ached at the very
thought.
I stared around the pathed woods were driving through. I frowned as I looked around; I felt uncomfortable being in a forest when we weren’t on packlands. That meant we were traveling through the rogue district.
“Spencer…” I said, a nervous twinge in my voice.
“Hmm?”
“I know we are Gammas and are trained to deal with any situation but is it a good idea to drive through the rogue district?” I asked him, glancing in his direction just in time to see him lifting one shoulder.
“I barely ever see rogues in this area,” he told me. “So, I don’t really think about
it.”