Chapter 139

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“I will not stay here, caged and restricted. I will leave at the first opportunity and you may or may not
be told about it if this is how you are going to react.” I changed my focus to the Alpha. “Alpha, may I
use your gym? The Luna does not want us to go out alone, and I respect that, but I don’t want any
of these guys near me right now and I have some anger to work out.” My whole body is still shaking
in anger and I need to desperately release the energy before I shift in the middle Of this office. My
wolf is just as pissed as I am. She’s ready to bang their heads together.
“Yes sweetheart, use it as long as you need, I will send Brett and Kyle down to check in in a little
while, you may need sparring partners. | nod my head and turn to leave. “Stay put, all three of you.”
The Alpha aura was strong and suffocating, it had me stutter in my steps until I realized he Was
giving me the Space from them that I needed. “Would you like me to send Sierra down in a little
while as well?”
“That’s fine, thank you Alpha.” I say over my shoulder. I can’t bear to look any of them in the eye. I
won’t feel bad about this.
As soon as I am through the door the explosion Of arguments from all three of them make me
flinch. They can’t be that angry about me leaving. It’s not their decision, it’s mine. And just the
thought of them feeling so entitled makes the lava in my veins run even hotter.
Gamma Brett is waiting for me in the hallway, his blank expression tells me, he has been told of the
situation and he turns as soon as he sees me and walks to the stairway that leads down the the
cells and the Alpha’s personal weight room.
He can’t always get to the gym that is attached to the main arena, and frankly, probably can’t get a
workout in if he does go. There is always someone who wants to talk to him or aska favor of him, so
he had a portion of the cells turned into a gym with weights, hanging bags and a large area for
sparring.
Gamma Brett lets me in with his code. “Do you want me to wrap your hands? The Alpha had a
brand new bag hung that could use some breaking in.” Like father, like son I guess. That thought
just adds fuel to my flames. He gives me a little smirk. Now I know he’s aware of the whole situation
and wants me to burn some of the energy before offering himself as a partner to spar with. At least
he appreciates my strength and skill level.
“Yes please.” Is all I say as he walks me over to the storage rack that seems to have everything I
might need to burn off the negative energy I have aimed at my friends right now. He takes my hands
like Oliver has done so many times and gently wraps each of my fingers making sure the straps are
secure.
Once he is done he steps back towards the door and takes the position of a sentinel on guard. No
words or eye contact needed, just my protector so I can disengage and fully let loose without having
to spare energy on the world falling apart around me.
I let the world fall away. No friends, no limitations, no bullies, no one to answer to, just me and the
bag in front of me. Every possible emotion I have pent up inside goes into each and every hit, every
kick more lethal than the last. I lose all sense of time and feeling. All the negative thoughts swirling
in my head are released into the bag. Everything my father has ever spit out at me, every insult and
false accusation from Kaley and her minions, all the self doubt that has pushed me to be better
each and every day. I heard a crack a while ago, but I don ‘t stop to check for breaks in my hand.
The pain just fuels the anger more. Pain is a weakness and I am tired of feeling weak, being treated
like I am weak, seen as being weak Even my wolf is giving me space. She hates that we are
fighting with the guys, she wants her pack, needs them, but she has always understood what I want
and need. She hates being stifled by them too. She will not fight me when I choose to leave and
further my training. Whether my mate is here or not this is a decision I have to be able to make.
Training has really been the only thing I have ever had control over, that will not change now. I will
never let anyone take this physical release from me. It’s my bliss, my Zen, the happy place that is
attributed to no one other than me. I want to push and see what I am really made of. I know I’m not
the best based on how I did in the trials. I want to be THE best, not just the best here in this pack I
want to be tried and tested, battle-worn with experiences I will never get being stuck here, so I can
come home and pass on the knowledge to future generations.