Chapter 71
“And I believed it” I chuckled humorlessly “i believed it.” Mist clouded my vision and everything was blurry. I didn’t know what was happening at first but when If felt wetness on my cheek I couldn’t believe it. I was crying.
I looked back at Ethan who looked shocked at seeing my tears but also pained, I noticed everyone I knew standing in the back and noticed most of all Ren and Xavier and Whitney and Alan. “I look–I look around” I continued “and I see mates that are happy to be together, t-that are madly in love and I…I think: What the hell did I do wrong? What did I do to deserve this?” I let out a sob “because Mates aren’t s-supposed to be this way. They’re not. The-they’re supposed to love each other no matter what, they’re n-not supposed to do this”
Ethan was looking confused and worried as I had my very public breakdown.
“I actually” I said with disbelief “i went soft. I trusted you and I-I gave you..I…I…Oh god” I closed my eyes and a sob escaped my throat “I gave you a chance” I made myself look at him directly “And just when I let my guard down you-you” I gulped “you do this? I’m such an idiot”
“Lily I dont’ understand what did I do?” Ethan looked at me pleadingly and for a moment I almost believed him
I stared at him and he must have seen the defeat and hurt in my eyes as he took a step back without noticing from the shock “Lily isn’t my mate” I “ed him in a low, tired voice and saw his face go pale “I don’t have one. Never did” I barely managed a sarcastic smile “Even after everything. After I changed so drastically” I sniffed “I’m still not good enough for you. Still ashamed of me”
“Lily let me explain”
“No” I said “no more explaining, I’m done Ethan” I wiped my tears “congratulations. you won”
“Lily I–”
“don’t” I whispered before turning on my heal and running as fast as I could, not caring that my heals would break or hat someone might see me running too fast for humans
I was glad when I reached the pack house and the only people there were either the parents, who were in their rooms and the babies who were fast asleep.
I ran to my room and slammed the door as the tears made their way freely. I fummbled, trying to take the dress off but it seemed stuck I just wanted to get out of it. “God damn it” I said as I just tore the dress away and threw myself on the bed as i cried and cried for the first time in two years.
My wolf was silent unlike the first time Ethan rejected me, the pain of being rejected after marking was simply too much, it hurt too much for her and me.
I couldn’t believe it, after everything that happened he still denied that I was his mate. Ethan lytton broke my heart all over again, just like everyone warned me he was going to, but I fell for him anyways and I fell hard.
Ethan’s P.O.V.
Ethan, just finished my patrol shift Keith told me through the mind link and I groaned, I had to listen to the patrol reports “patrol report I’ll be right back” I told my beautiful mate
“If there’s anything new you’ll tell me right?” she said sternly and I smiled and nodded and left. God damn it she was so beautiful and dancing with her, having her so close seemed almost surreal. I saw Keith and headed towards him.
“We’ve found a few rogues along the lines of our territory but we can’t attack because they aren’t technically on our territory Thıs content belongs to.net
That was what frustrated me most about rogues, they knew exactly what to do so the packs would be helpless well not this pack.
“Keep an eye open, their activity has increased lately and I want to know why” Keith nodded and left.
Alpha permission to speak with you I heard a faint, scared voice say through the mind link alone
I turned around and saw Melissa standing there looking scared but determined. “I just wanted to congratulate you”
block out the rest of the pack alpha please she begged and I did now just go with me please
why? I asked suspiciously
It’s about the rogues. I stiffened and she gave me a warning look when I stiffened please alpha its dangerous
“On what?” I asked playing along
“Finding your mate” she said with an obviously fake smile “We finally have a Luna huh?Lily is going to be a perfect alpha female”
Deny it she said Don’t admit Lily is your mate
I let out a growl, what the hell? Why would I deny her? I’d never do that I wanted Lily to be my mate, to be alpha female.
Never I growled at her and she winced
She’s in danger alpha she said with a look of sorrow More than you can imagine
What Danger? I said suddenly more alert than ever as I turned and saw Lily sitting with her friends Who would dare try and hurt her
Rogues Melissa answered She will get hurt if you don’t do this
“What?” I asked confused as to why the rogues would set their sights on Lily, and then i understood why Melissa didn’t want me to confirm that Lily was my mate.
let them try I snarled I’ll protect her with my life they won’t go near her
You think she’ll let you protect her? Melissa thought I think you know Lily by now and even if you stay with her 24/7 they’d still get to her Ethan. Do you really want to risk her life?