Chapter 96

I snuggled close to Ethan and he put a hand around my shoulders “What are you thinking about?” I asked as he turned to me with a smile.
“Just random thoughts” he smiled “So what’s gonna be your new year’s resolution”
I bit my lip and sighed “To be happy…with you” I smiled “yours?”
“To wake up everyday with you in my arms and tell you that you’re beautiful so that maybe you’d see yourself like I see you. To make sure no one ever hurts you again. And to treat you like you deserve to be treated.” he smiled “To spend everyday showing you how much I love you”
“I love you too”
“Good” he said smiling playfully, fingering the ring on my finger “Because you’re gonna get stuck with me for a while”
I smiled and pressed my lips against his, he immediately responded, deepening the kiss as his tongue flicked my bottom lip asking for entrance I quickly granted. Ethan flipped us over so that he was on top and kissed me fiercely.
Now or Never I thought to myself as I reached for the edge of his boxers. Ethan stilled, his hand grabbing mine “What are you doing?” he asked pulling away.
“I’m ready for this” I said “I’m ready for you to claim me”
Ethan’s eyes widened and he flew away from me like I had just electrocuted him. I sat up on the bed confused and found Ethan with his back to me, his hands on either sides of the dresser, knuckled white as he kept his eyes shut, knowing if he looked up he’d see me in the reflection of the mirror.
“What’s wrong?” I asked and Ethan looked up and held on tighly to the sides of the dresser, breaking the wood in the process.
“God Lily, put some clothes on” he said and I immediately felt my face heat up at his words, it was like a slap on the face.
“You don’t want me” I stated in a low voice.
“God it’s not that” Ethan sounded choked as he looked at me “Definitely not that”
“Then what?” I asked “I told you I’m ready. I’m not scared. I want this” I turned around and hugged myself knowing I couldn’t look at him when I asked the next question “Do you?”
I felt him grab my hand and turn me around. He looked only at my face, not at my body and it killed me to think he didn’t like what he saw. “Of course want this” he said “I want this so bad. But…it’s just” he turned around and walked to the wall, resting his hands on it
“What?” I asked “It’s just what?”
“I’m an idiot Lily” he said turning around to face me”I admit it. I act without thinking, I let my wolf take over far too much, I’m possessive, jealous and I have a foot in my mouth most of the time, I’m not the perfect mate” he looked pained as he said that “I’m bound to make a million mistakes and though I’d never hurt you willingly I might. Just look at what happened at the winter formal, when you were kidnapped. Bad things happen to you because of me” he shook his head “I don’t want to do this now and then make you regret it”
I shook my head. My mate was an idiot, at least that part was true. He really blamed himself for everything.
I walked towards him and wrapped my arms around his waist but he avoided my gaze “Ethan, what happened at the winter formal was a misunderstanding and the rogues taking me wasn’t your fault. Plus it was a good thing, we got rid of them”
Ethan looked at me angrily “but not at the expense of what they did to you” he said and then the anger from his eyes turned to pain “I almost lost you”
“But you didn’t” I said “I’m here, I’m with you, I love you. I’m yours” I pressed my body against his while biting my lip, knowing that action drove him crazy “Only yours” I said the last two words silly and watched as his eyes turned black and minutes later I was on the bed with Ethan hovering over me.
“God Lily are you trying to kill me by wearing this?” he asked and I blushed. He leaned and started kissing me fiercely, passionately, so hard I felt myself get dizzy and my body get hot. God and that was just kissing.
Ethan pulled back and looked at me “Are you sure about this?”
I nodded “I’m sure” I said “Make love to me Ethan” ɴᴇᴡ ɴᴏᴠᴇʟ ᴄʜᴀᴘᴛᴇʀs ᴀʀᴇ ᴘᴜʙʟɪsʜᴇᴅ ᴏɴ.net
Ethan groaned and dipped his head, kissing me passionately. He was gentle and caring as he made love to me, the pleasure he made me feel was indescribable. And after as I lay with my head on is chest both of us spent I started doze off, but I felt Ethan get off the bed.
“Where are you going?” I asked him and he smirked at me
“To turn off the lights” he said. He turned off the lights and walked back to the bed, he got in and looked at my naked body under the sheets “Gotta love wolf vision”
“Shut up” I said blushing and he laughed
“You’re shy” he stated winking
“No I’m no-” I shut up after seeing the look he was giving me”Okay fine I am”
“Funny you weren’t shy a few moments ago” he teased and I hit him on the chest as he laughed and pulled me closer to him.
“I’m your mate you’re not supposed to hit me” he said and I grinned as I flipped us over so that I was straddling him.