Chapter 115

I was instantly surrounded by his scent and knew it was his room. He left me in the darkness and I heard his footsteps before the light went on.
the room was simple enough with blue walls and black furniture. There were a couple of shirts on the floor but it wasn’t a mess.
“nice room” I said walking and sitting on the edge of the bed “Are you sure no one would mind that I’m here?”
“Nah” he said sitting next to me “As long as we don’t cause trouble no one cares” I nodded and we remained in silence after a while he finally spoke “After this night…can we still meet?”
“I guess so” I said “But I live away from here we can’t see each other a lot”
“So we’ll talk on the phone, email…there’s a million ways.My friend, Xavier. He talks to this girl on email they met a while ago and they’ve become best friends and they haven’t even met except for sending pictures. here, lok give me your phone”
I pulled out my phone and gave it to him and he wrote something and then showed me the screen, he had added himself as a contact “you can call me” he said “Anytime”
“Why?” I asked, not believing a guy like him would want to stay in touch with a girl like me
“because you’re amazing Anne” he said and my eyes watered, no one had ever said that to me His expression turned to confusion “Why are you crying?”
I chuckled “Can you do me a favor Adrian?” I asked and he immediately;y nodded while gently wiping my tears. “Kiss me”
He seemed surprised but then he smiled and a strand of my hair behind my ears and grabbed my chin and tilted my head towards him. As soon as his lips brushed mine we immediately started kissing passionately. The kiss deepened, his tongue brushing my bottom lip, asking for entrance which I immediately granted.
I fell back on the mattress with him hovering over me, still kissing me passionately. I found myself tracing the muscles on his chest as he shuddered.
“Anne” he said against my lips and I ignored him and continued kissing him “God…Anne, we have to stop”
He pulled away and rolled away from me, breathing heavily with his hands clenched. I felt the sting rejection, of course he wouldn’t want me. Luke didn’t and he certainly wouldn’t.
“I…I’m sorry”
He apparently sensed the hurt in my voice and sighed before he turned “I’m sorry Anne I just…didn’t want to lose control with you. I really like you Anne and I want to give us a shot, we have a lot to talk about.” I nodded still not believing him “Anne, I mean it” he crawled on the bed and wrapped me in his arms when he reached me so that my head was on his chest.
I nodded not speaking just loving the feel of his arms around me, he provided enough warmth that I found myself taking off my scarf and throwing it to the floor.
Adrian kept brushing my hair the calming motion making me sleepy “Adrian?” I said sleepily
“Yeah?”
“Thank you” I said and barely heard him saying ’for what?’’ before I fell asleep. Thıs text ıs hosted at.net
“NATE” Lucy said breaking me out of my daydream. I looked at her and saw her yawning “Why weren’t you answering me?” She asked sleepily
“I got distracted” I said sweetly and then looked at Charles and Claire “Do you guys want to go to bed?”
Charles shook his head “I want to wait for Uncle Adrian” he said and I grimaced, I hadn’t seen Adrian all day and for that I was thankful. After the awkward dinner the other day when Patrick kept dropping hints that me and him are together and Adrian was getting madder and madder.
“Lily said Adrian was going to be late Char, you need to go to bed, okay?”
“but I don’t want to go to bed” Claire said “I have nightmares”
I looked at her in confusion “of what sweetheart”
“of mommy and daddy” she said and I felt my heart ache for her, it wasn’t fair for these kids to lose their parents.
“I’ll tell you what” I said “if you go to sleep now I’ll sing to you the song I used to sing to my brother before he went to sleep okay?”
Claire’s face lit up and she ran to her bed, so did Lucy and Charles. I chuckled and walked towards the bed.
“So now you want to sleep” I teased and Claire giggled
“please sing the song Nate” Lucy said and I nodded, I hadn’t even thought of the song ever since Gabriel died.
I sat on the edge of Claire’s bed and reached out and brushed her hair and started singing.
I was never alive
Till the day i was blessed with you
When I hold you late at night
I know what I was put here to do
I started remembering all the nights I spent next to Gabriel when he was sick just praying he’d get better.
I turn off the world and listen to you sigh
And I will Sing my angel’s lullaby
Know I’m forever near, the one you can always call
Right now all you know to fear, are the shadows on your wall
My eyes started watering remembering when I sang the song to him the last time, I knew he wouldn’t wake up when he slept and the tears rolled down my face
I’m here, close enough to kiss the tears you cry
and I will sing my angel’s lullaby
My voice started breaking as I kept singing, memories of Gabriel finally coming to mind. I hadn’t allowed myself to think so much about him, remembering my promise not to cry.
So tell me how to stop the years from wasting
Is there a secret someone knows