Chapter 116

I’ll never catch all the memories I’m chasin
Never be ready to let go
And when the world seems cold
and you feel that all of your strength is gone
There may be one tiny voice
Your reason to carry on
I noticed the children’s eyes were closing as they drifted to sleep and I tucked tucked them all in properly so they wouldn’t get cold ᴜᴘᴅᴀᴛᴇ ꜰʀᴏᴍ
And when I’m not close enough
To kiss the tears you cry
You will sing my angel’s lullaby
I ignored the tears streaming down my cheeks as I planted a small kiss on each of their foreheads
Let this be Our angel’s lullaby
I took a deep breath and turned off the light as i went out of the room and closed the door behind me, I needed to go home.
“What happened Nate?” Adrian’s voice came from behind me and I froze but didn’t turn around, knowing he’d see my tears. I knew he’d heard the song and that he knew I was crying so I understood his question
“Gabriel died” I stated and started walking away but Adrian grabbed my arm firmly but not enough to hurt and made me turn around. His expression turned pained as he saw the way I looked.
“I’m sorry”
I chuckled “For what? it’s not like you killed him” I said and started walking away.
“Damn it Nate just talk to me. Can you really not tell me what you’re feeling…no scratch that I know what you’re feeling now but is it so hard to trust me enough to tell me, to talk to me.”
“it’s not a matter of trust” I snapped at him “It’s about being weak or being strong” My bottom lip trembled but I didn’t care “A long time ago I swore never to be weak again” I looked at him straight in the eye “never”
“Why? he asked seeming to tense “Who left you like this Nate? Who made trusting people so hard for you. Tell me the bastard’s name”
I froze, and stared at him in shock “You’re imagining things” I said trying to steady my voice.
“Am I? At the party when we met while you were running there was a guy behind you. And I noticed your hesitation and insecurity but I didn’t think anything of it. But now, watching how you push everyone away except for Patrick, and even with him you don’t let go completely, I know that some asshole did this to you”
“You’re wrong” I said, my voice quivering and I knew I wasn’t very convincing
“And you’re letting some guy dictate the way you are now. You’re letting him affect you, so go on Nate. Give him the satisfaction of knowing he got to you”
“How dare you!” I said anger finally lacing my words “What gives you the bloody right to–”
“This” he interrupted me, cupping my face in both hands and crushing my lips to his. I was fully prepared for rough and deep kisses, instead I was surprised and touched by the gentleness of it. After all those years his lips still tasted the same, still gave me the same goosebumps and butterflies.
He pulled away finally but kept his eyes closed and his forehead against mine “It could be amazing Nate. you and I, just us. I’d show you how much I love you everyday and I’d erase all the bad memories, all the insecurities. Just give us a chance baby, please”
A sob tore it’s way out my throat and I pulled back “I’m sorry” I said taking steps backwards “I can’t…I’m sorry” I turned and ran ignoring the looks as I got out of the house and started running home.
I woke up to feel big strong arms holding me and instantly smiled at the security they gave me. I heard my pager beep and instantly grabbed my purse and checked it
Fever it said and my heart dropped. A fever with Gabriel is more dangerous than with normal people because of his condition. I got up slowly from beside Adrian and went to the bathroom and washed my face, i knew my mom would be going crazy now especially when I’d come home in the same dress I was wearing but I didn’t care.
I carried my purse and planted a small kiss on Adrian’s lips “Thank you for helping me escape, even if it is for one night” I whispered and then walked out the door looking back one more time at the sleeping figure on the bed. I checked my watch and saw it was 5 AM. I subconsciously reached for my lips, letting my fingers trace them and smiling at the tingling sensation that was still there. it was a perfect night and I knew i’d never forget Adrian Morgan but I had to get back to reality.
Nate’s P.O.V.
“Uum Nate” Patrick said hesitantly as I continued t scrub the windows in his apartment “This is the third time you have cleaned my apartment in a week you really don’t need to do this”:
“I know” I said without looking at him “but I want to. plus you’re apartment is a mess”
“I swear Nate, i haven’t seen you sit down and relax once since you got here”
“you’re exaggerating Pat” I said with an exasperated sigh. I really didn’t know what was his problem “is it not normal to want to clean?”
“No, but it isn’t normal to never stop working whether it’s cleaning the apartments, cooking, going to your job, ir moving things around every five minutes”
“Seriously Pat it’s i stopped talking when Pat’s door knocked. He opened the door and I saw him lean on the doorframe
“How can I help you?” He said in the voice I recognised as his flirty voice.