Chapter 179

Chapter 179

Raven

Damien is tense as he moves around my room. He had checked the windows several times before closing the curtains. Thankfully, there were no more bloody handprints.

He looks so tired.’ Midnight murmurs There’s a lot going on’ I mutter back

I knew better than to ask him if he was okay. It was obvious he wasn’t, but I wasn’t exactly the greatest when it came to me being reassuring. I tried to be reassuring to Neah when she first came here, and all I did was stick my foot in it about Dane having other brides. Though that was a combination of me trying to warn her.

Jenson told me once that I was too truthful for my own good. That it would get me in trouble one day. You always have been a shit liar.’ Midnight snorts. It was pretty much the only thing she agreed with Jenson on

Damien checks the hallway and even checks the bathroom, which has a window that even Neah couldn’t fit through. It was like he was expecting Salem to jump out at any second and attack us. There was even a moment where I thought he was actually going to check under the bed.

I knew he was just doing it to gain some level of control

“If he’s in human form, we would be able to scent him. If he is in Lycan form, you will be able to scent him.” I remind him. “You’re right.” He stops in front of me and leans down to kiss me

He pulls back, resting his forehead against mine.

“You think it’s too late, don’t you?” It was a question that I had been desperate to ask. But I had managed to keep it out of my thoughts so that it didn’t bother him if he read my mind.

lo.” It was a heavy no. Almost like he wasn’t convinced of his own answer. “You don’t have to lie to me. I can see it in your face. You warned Dane, but deep down, you think it’s too late.”

“It’s impossible to know. Not a single one of us is the exact same. For example, you and Jenson. You are twins, your wolves are twins too, but you are not in any way alike. There’s no way of knowing that if she crosses over, we can bring her back. If she doesn’t want to….” He trails off as he shakes his head at me.

“I know Neah is your friend Raven, but there is only so much we can do. Only so much any of us can do.

He sits on the bed next to me.

“You will try?” I ask

“I won’t stop trying.

“What about the pups?

He keeps his eyes averted.

“Will they survive?” I push. Maybe if Neah knew what would happen to her pups, it would keep her from becoming something she is not. Damien clenches his jaw.

“Tell me, I can handle it.”

“There was a female in our group of Rogues, who was pregnant when she became fully Lycan.” “The pup died in birth?” “She ate it.” His eyes flicker to me and my shocked face. “It’s not black and white, Raven. Everything is food to them unless….”

I cut him off as I add up the information “Unless it’s in Lycan form. The pup was born in human form. so she ate her own pup.”

He nods. “Il warmed you Raven, we are dark. Evetything about being Rogue, is food and games. It’s like It’s like nething else matters. Thes world could be crumbling oe yousbut as long as you have food, yotrdon’ t care.” Content beténgs to 4

“It took me a long time to understand why we become so obsessed with food and the simple answer is the same as why you eat so much after you shift. It makes you so hungry, but for a Rogue, the hunger doesn’t go away, ever.”

“As hard as it seems, you need to tell her.” I whisper quietly. “Those pups mean a lot toher, this pack, to Dane, to me andto you too. Maybe it will keep her from killing anyone else> Maybe it will stop her changing: I heat the pleading in my ownttone. I was afraid of losing her. Aa dd in that second, I knew there waS’more to what Damien speaks of.