Chapter 229
Chapter 229
Blair
I was expecting his dark eyes to be wide with my announcement. Instead he just stares at me like I have just asked him if he had a good day.
“Are you not going to say anything?” I demand.
“What do you want me to say?”
“This isn’t one of those times where you wait for my instructions, or you need to follow my orders. I just gave you the answer to why I don’t shift. Why I mentioned losing control. Why I find it easy to kill Rogues, well, kill anyone. And now you are just staring at me!”
He continues to watch me.
“There have been hints for months and you have been too dumb to see it!” I snap, sudden rage boiling through me. This is why I never let anyone get close. I never wanted them to figure it out, but Jenson has been here for months and he still hasn’t figured it out.
“Dumb?” He cocks an eyebrow at me
“It’s fine. Just pack your things and go.” I hide any emotion that I’m feeling. I knew it would come to this and I had been prepared for this moment since he snaked his way into my heart.
He gets to his feet and doesn’t move any further. He jams his hands into his pockets. I was expecting his heart to be thundering in his chest. A Rogue had killed his mate. That’s what had led him to me.
“I knew the moment you sniffed out Damien. I’ve just been waiting for you to tell me.”
“What? That was months ago!”
“Damien once said being Rogue heightens your senses, allowing you to sniff out other Lycans, differentiating them from the Wolves. You sniffed him out when he followed me. You knew he was there when I didn’t. I knew then that at some point in your life you had been a Rogue.”
It takes a lot to surprise me, but he has my jaw hanging open.
“If I hadn’t known about Lycans and unaware of the information I know about Rogues. I wouldn’t have put two and two together. But you are right about one thing. Little bits of information have slipped through. Which probably wouldn’t have happened if I hadn’t fallen for you and stuck around. I’ve been waiting for you to tell me Blair. For you to feel safe enough with me that you could finally announce it.”
It’s my own heart that is rampaging as I clutch the rolled up yoga mat to my chest. He had known and he hadn’t said a word. Letting me keep my secret, letting me decide when to share.
“You…you still want to claim me?” I was pretty sure if the window was open and a breeze passed through it would knock me off my feet. No one, not a single person had wanted anything from me other than to kill something or someone. They hadn’t ben interested in my life in any shape or form.
“I’m still here aren’t I?”
“Why?” I splutter, still in shock.
“You are the first person I’ve loved.”
“But we are not mated.”
“And? Why should that stop us? If I claim you, you are mine and I am yours. I don’t care if you were a Rogue in the past.”
I turn away, because he just didn’t see the seriousness of what being a Rogue is or was.
“That’s why I don’t shift, Jenson. I told you I lose control. You think that bastard was bad. When I was Rogue, I was a hundred times worse. It’s why I made it a mission to hunt them down and get rid of them. And not shifting allows me to keep control.”
“Okay.”
“A Rogue killed your mate.” I don’t even know why I was trying to push him away. He was probably the best thing that has happened to me in my whole life. Even if he did annoy me half the time.”
“You didn’t. And maybe that’s a sign. Because if he hadn’t, I wouldn’t have met you.”
It was too much. I walk over to the hooks by the door and grab my keys. His hand grabs hold of me, spinning me around and pressing me into the wall, his warm body flush with mine. “Don’t run away.”
“I’m not. I just….” I don’t even know what I need at this point. To kill, to drown myself in wine, a good fucking. I don’t know. I just need to clear my head.