Chapter 292

But at the same time, Killian was trying. He had pushed past that instinct, and he had stayed. Opened the vault behind which he locked himself up. He had exposed more of himself in front of her and, more importantly, he had admitted that he cared for her. It was something an alpha would hardly ever do. After all, alpha shifters were all about being strong and powerful. They never believed in showing their vulnerability in front of others.
Wasn’t this why Dominic often blocked her out? Because he didn’t want to expose himself in front of her.
However, Killian moved past that very instinct and bared himself in front of her. He had told her the truth even though he was feeling raw and vulnerable. Inez had to admit that it took a heap of emotional bravery. Something that even she would have a hard time showing. If that didn’t take away a chunk of her anger, then who knows what would?
And honestly, if he was willing to do it for her, then it was only fair for her to return the favour.
“If it helps, Kill, you are not the only one who is suffering. You, too, made yourself important to me even though I had no such intention of letting anyone come close to me. You also slithered your way in through the tiny cracks. I think after what happened to me, it’s really scary to care about someone. Freaking out is normal. Believe me when I say that worry about you leaving me, everyone I cared for — everyone I wish would love me — had left me—”
“I would never do that,” exclaimed Killian, interrupting her.
“Of course I know,” said Inez as she agreed with what he was saying. “I know that you won’t do it. But there is so much uncertainty, isn’t there? Isn’t it the same for you? What if you get bored with me? What if you get someone better than me? What if you fail to give me the commitment that I want? Can this even work in the long run?”
“You really think all of that?”
He sounded awed.
“I do. Caring for someone after getting my heart torn out of my body is difficult. Realising that I don’t even have control over my emotions is not a good feeling; it’s freaky. And I understand what you are feeling, but I would like it if you were honest with me. If you want space or a break-up, just tell me the truth. Don’t try to play it around—”
“I don’t want space,” Killian stated hurriedly. He pulled her close and said to her, “I admit that I fucked up just now, but I do not need space, nor do I want it. Fuck, I doubt I can even open up to someone else other than you, so I know I am right where I belong and need to.”
Inez closed her eyes and hugged him. She petted him. “I know it was nothing more than your instincts getting all out of control, but if you ever feel like you need to get away from me, be honest with me.”
“And I am being honest with you; I do not need any form of space, as you are thinking. It was just a speed bump. I wobbled, yeah, but there is no need for me to take space. I will never act so stupid with you ever fucking again. I couldn’t have left you. I could never let you leave me. Fuck, the second you walked out on me, I felt like you fucking ripped my soul out of my body. I am exactly where I want to be.”
“I am blind when it comes to relationships and when you don’t know where you are headed. It’s easy for you to bump into something. That’s what this is like for me. I have never loved someone before. I know it will sound cheesy coming from a grown-ass man like me, but I am doing my best to navigate in a brand-new territory. I swear, if anything, you are the one who is guiding me. When you snap at me like that, I know that I have messed up.”
He let out a heavy sigh. “But that’s no excuse for acting like an arsehole. I have hurt you, and I am sorry for that. I am sorry that I acted like a dick. Swear to the Moon Goddess, I never wanted to hurt you; that was the last thing I ever wanted to do.” He cupped her face with his hands and kissed her on the lips. “Do you think you can forgive me?”
She sighed heavily. “Yeah.”
Killian felt his heart melt right there and then. There was no such thing as conditions; she asked nothing in return for forgiving him. She didn’t threaten him with what could go wrong if he messed up again. Just a simple acceptance of his apology and the mess that he had created. Dear Moon Goddess, just what did he do to deserve her?
And he admitted that he fucking loved her for that.
“You truly amaze me; do you know that?” Another chaste kiss to her lips as he promised, “I swear I will never, never make this same mistake again. I am right where I want to be. I should have seen it coming way before then; I did—the best thing in my world.”
He took her mouth and swept his tongue inside her mouth, pouring all of himself into her. Killian wanted Inez to feel how much he needed her and desired her and what she meant to him. He had meant to go slow and comfort her, but the second he kissed her, he found himself pushing her down on the bed. Check latest chapters at
He needed to touch her, feel her and reconnect with the time they had lost because of his petty stupidity.
He brushed his lips against hers, “So beautiful. And all mine.”