Chapter 138
Beau.
’’We need to end this. This is the first pack that has ever been this much of a problem.’’
I recognise the voice immediately as I try to remain on my feel. This is Cassius’s voice. Why does it sound like it is so close? It feels like he is in this bathroom with me. the voice gets closer which makes me fall to the ground. It is like this sharp banging in my head.
’’What is the plan boss?’’
There is another voice in my head. this time someone I don’t recognise. There are just voices I can’t see them but they seem so real. The pain gets stronger as the voices get clearer.
’’One final ambush, when they least expect it.’’
Cassius mutters to the person. The voice starts to fade before I can get anything concrete. I grip the edges of the sink as I feel Lanis next to me.
’’Baby,’’ he calls me, the worry evident in his shaking voice. I open my eyes as I try to control my breathing. he grabs me by my shoulders and pulls me up, taking control of my body, he leads me into the bedroom again.
’’What happened?’’ he asks immediately.
I already know what he is thinking. Something went wrong with the ritual. This doesn’t have anything to do with the ritual. For a moment, I felt connected to Cassius. I was hearing him in my head. how is that even possible.
’’Cassius,’’ I mutter because I feel like all the energy in me has been drained. If you add the training session to all my burdens, it has taken a toll on me.
’’Come on, let’s get you to bed,’’ he manages, still shaking.
Lanis is worrying. I don’t want him to worry. I am fine right now ’’Hey,’’ I manage to stand up on my own ’’I am fine,’’ I try to assure him.
He shakes his head ’’No you’re not. You passed out.’’ He exclaims.
I chuckle ’’I didn’t pass out, I just lost control of my movement. I heard his voice,’’ I tell him being completely transparent. Even if this is me losing my mind, I know Lanis is the only one that wouldn’t think so. He is the only one that will believe me, no matter what.
’’What do you mean?’’
I point to my head ’’Like in here, I heard him talking to someone. They were talking about the pack.’’
’’Could that mean something, almost like how I saw you when he had you?’’ he suggests.
I shake my head ’’I don’t think it is the same. It felt like he couldn’t sense me. I could feel him, it was so real but he couldn’t sense me.’’
He smiles ’’This is a good thing. We should speak to Eligio about this. do you know what we could do with being inside his head?’’
I think the exact same thing. We will always be one step ahead if we could get into his head. we can get to him and then attack. This is the best thing that could happen. I want to hear more.
’’He talked about an attack. He is planning to attack again,’’ I tell him what I heard.
He nods ’’We will be ready for him when he comes. This time will not be like the others. Can we get back into this when you eat? You need all the strength you can get right now.’’
He is right. I am very hungry.
’’Okay,’’ I accept.
He smiles ’’Why don’t I get you something to eat like we originally planned. Do you think you are up for your shower?’’
I nod my head immediately ’’Yeah, I can do it.’’
The face is, the voices were unexpected. Hence my reaction but they didn’t affect me or make me weaker. They just come with a splitting headache. He ruffles my hair playfully and plants a soft kiss on my forehead ’’You got this babe. I will call Eligio to come into the house. We got this.’’ he winks and my heart melts from his words.
We.
I love that he is with me on this.
The way he groups us. makes me not feel so alone. This is everything to me. it means the world and I will never take it for granted. There are so many obstacles but the more things happen, the stronger we are. This whole ordeal has helped us get closer.
I appreciate all the bad things because they lead to good.
I watch him walk out of my room and the smile remains plastered on my face. once in the showers, my mind clouds back to Cassius. He knows that I will not let him off the hook easily. He thinks he will just succeed in eliminating my whole pack but he wouldn’t. He is messing with an angry wolf. The kind that will do anything to win.
I have lost so much, I lost my family. There is no one left from my bloodline except me and Fallon. The fact that I might have to kill him too lingers in my mind. I have not forgotten about Fallon. He is still at the back of my mind. I know he will still come back. He is a coward and he ran away from the fear but I am sure once things settle down here, he will back to try to claim everything he so desperately wants.
Fallon is even more of an enemy to me because he killed my father in cold blood. He didn’t even put up a fight or try to challenge him. He caught him off guard and hurt him.
The weakest way to kill someone.
The same way Cassius’s family was killed.
When I think about Cassius, there is a little part of me that pities him. I wish his life didn’t have to turn out the way it did. He was just a kid that harnessed so much hate that it eventually turned him into a monster.
I close my eyes as the water seeps down my body, calming down all my tensed muscles. Today was hell, but I saw the potential I have. The strength I muster within me.
Uncle Jules showed it all to me.
With all the anger I tried to let go of today, I saw what I could do. how strong I could be.
There is more to come and Cassius doesn’t know what will hit him in the time to come.
’’Get everything ready, we are going back to base.’’
The headache comes suddenly with the voice again. I hold unto the taps in the shower, so I don’t fall. My eyes close on instinct, as I hear footsteps. It sounds so close. I know it is in my head. this is all in my head. Cassius is in my head, but it is real.
’’Get the troops ready. We are not waiting any longer.’’His voice is firm and very cold.
Makes me hate him even more.
’’Yes sir,’’the other voice speaks up.
’’We leave for the base first thing in the morning. Two days from now, I want all the wolves in this town dead.’’
For a second, with my eyes closed, I see his face. that evil expression of him. the one that is fuelled with all the anger. He is in a room, almost and underground dungeon. It is dark, there is no light in the room, except for a candle. I don’t even know where this is but it doesn’t matter. He is leaving here tomorrow.
The voices disappear from my head and I open my eyes again, breathing heavily. I know that Cassius plans to attack us in two days. I know he is going back to his base—wherever that is.
They said he was in hiding, which means he left his mansion. The place he kept me hostage. That can only mean, he is going back there. I want to go there. I want to kill him before he tries to attack us. this seems like the opportunity to do that.
This seems like the only option. I need to get to him before he comes to us. I walk out of the shower and grab a towel, completely drying myself up. I am hungry. I need to haunt right now. That is the only thing that will give me the immediate strength I need.
I walk out of the house, not even telling Lanis about it. he wouldn’t agree with me hunting at a time like this but I need to. I go around the back. A place only I know about. This is how I usually used to sneak out of the community. Most times to get the escape I need. I find my way out of the gates and transform fully. This time, my wolf screams out in excitement. I haven’t hunted in a while. It can sense it.
I will get the food that I need and then I will find Cassius. I am done waiting for him. I am tired fo all the back and forth.
I want his head.