Chapter 273

Rex.
Everything happens so fast. He takes me out of the estate like we are on the run. He doesn’t even think about Blue for even a second. I know what this means, he is only thinking about me. almost like he is afraid something would happen to me. I know he blames himself but I am the one that hurt him.
I am the one that almost killed him.
He is acting like he isn’t upset and maybe he isn’t but I hurt him and Blues mother. How do I forgive myself?
My phone rings in my pocket as he drives the car. He said he couldn’t drive but, at that moment, he is doing the exact thing he said he couldn’t. Gyles is very smart and I guess it was just a matter of time.
“Don’t answer it.” he breathes out, his eyes focused on the road. I know who is calling. Blue must be worried but I am so exhausted that I don’t even reach for the phone. I haven’t eaten anything in two days. My wolf has been so quiet. I mean, this is all my fault but I didn’t expect him to be so silent—especially after finally hearing more from him.
“It’s probably Blue,’’ I tell him.
He sighs and I watch him as he runs his hands through his hair “Blue is in a mess. I am so sure of it. I think he needs to focus on his mother right now,’’ he tells me like he has thought this through.
Blue said he was going to get me out of the mess I put myself in “You know this isn’t your fault, right?’’ he blurts out. I raise a brow because he just read my mind. He is invading my thoughts. The only place I can feel all this guilt is eating me up.
“Whose fault is it?’’ I ask him wanting to know what he thinks of this situation.
The fact that he loves me is really clouding his judgment.
“I don’t know, but something happened to you. you would never just hurt me.’’ he analyses. I have been thinking about it and I can’t understand how I would hurt him. my heart aches just thinking about it and I just can’t believe I was the same person that stabbed him.
“But I did. That is all that matters. I thought I didn’t have it in me to hurt anybody but I hurt two people and one might die.’’ I want to listen to him and believe that this is not my fault but at the end, it is.
“You don’t even fucking remember,’’ he shouts almost frustrated. He can’t be frustrated because of me…right?
“Where are we going?’’ I ask him wanting to change the topic. His eyes are fixed on the road as he answers me.
“I have no clue. I just want to get us as far away from that place as possible and then we can get somewhere to rest and then you can drive us back home.”
The fact that he is calling the pack home makes me feel happy but I don’t even have the energy to be happy right now.
“What about Blue?’’
He sighs.
“I don’t know. I just need to make sure you are okay?’’
“What about him. he would be worried.’’
I know this is not the time to think about that. I have to think about myself for now. I don’t know what would have happened to me if I had stayed there. It didn’t seem like blue had any power in there. I mean, if he did, they wouldn’t have locked me up…right?
“I just want him to know that we are okay?’’ I manage because, at the end of it all, I will still think about him, I will still want to make sure he doesn’t worry too much.
“I will call him when we get to a motel, okay?’’ he glances at me and gives me a warm smile. His way of telling me that everything will be okay.
I rest my head on the seat as he continues the drive. My heart has been beating heavily, the worry filling up in my chest. I don’t know but it seems like something terrible is still going to happen and I don’t even know what it is. I don’t want to worry Gyles any further but I keep thinking that something will go wrong.
I don’t know what it is but I just still don’t feel like myself. There is this ache in my chest, almost like I am in a prison in my own body and I don’t know how to get out of it. I don’t know what to do to make this feeling go away.
We get to the motel and Gyles grabs my wallet from the console and walks in. I sit in the car because I don’t even have the energy to follow him. the wait in the silence of the car is killing. My phone keeps ringing and the more the vibrate trickles me in my shorts, the more I get frustrated. After a couple of rings, I bring it out and his name is on the screen.
Blue.
All this wouldn’t have happened if we didn’t come here. I wouldn’t be in this mess, suffering in silence.
I slide the button and place it on my ear.
“Rex, where are you,’’ he calls my name. all I can sense is the pain in his voice. making the fact that we left him all alone haunts me even more.
“I am with Gyles.”
I hear the relief in his voice but it is just for a second. “He woke up, fuck that is a relief. Where are you guys now?’’
At the end of it all, he is still just worried about us and this makes this even more of a jerk move. I don’t know what to tell him.
“We’re going home,’’ I tell him because that is the truth. The fact that we are going back to the pack without him must make him feel even worse.
“Oh, I want to check you. make sure you are okay. Something terrible happened to you and we can’t ignore it.’’
The fact that I have this weight in my chest.
“I am fine now.’’
He sighs through the phone. I want to take him in my arms. I want to feel the relief that comes from being in his arms “I know but I need to make sure. Can you come back?’’ he asks.
“They will lock me up again.’’
“I won’t let that happen. You have to trust me.”
It’s not that I don’t trust him. I am just so scared and right now the fear seems to be wining. I know he is right to want to make sure that I am okay. He has every right to be but Gyles wouldn’t listen right now.
“Just tell me where you are,’’ he adds.
“Okay.”
I don’t know if this is a good idea but I do trust him and It feels like he is the only one that can help me right now. just thinking that something isn’t right must mean something. I don’t want to ignore this because I don’t want to end up hurting Gyles.
I don’t want that at all.
I send him a quick text of our location.
Gyles walks back to the car with a set of keys “Come on baby,” he urges me with a faint smile but I see the tiredness in his eyes.
I just need everything to be okay.
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