Chapter 585

Blue
“We should leave this place,’’ Gyles pulls away from me slowly. I have been holding him for a couple of minutes and the more time that passes, the more I don’t want to let go. I just got him back and this might be the part of me that is scared that something else could happen at any moment in time and I could end up losing him again but I want to hold unto him until we leave this coven.
“Yeah, I just need to go back down there. She is not expecting me to be in the house. She fucking chose to go to bed, after everything that happened today. She doesn’t even see me as a threat and that is what hurts the most.’’ I confess to him.
I have been beside myself since I went to her room and saw her asleep. It makes me feel even more useless. I know that my mother has never actually thought of me as good with magic and I don’t dispute that but going to bed means to her, I am harmless.
She might not know a lot about me but just even thinking that she is probably laughing at me and my failures make me feel even worse.
I feel like shit and I hate this feeling so much.
“That doesn’t matter. You know what you are capable of, I know what you are capable of and that is all that matters.”
I sigh because I am exhausted “Can we go back to the room, can we go back and find what we were looking for?’’ I ask.
He shakes his head “That is not the plan, don’t get emotional and forget that.’’
“There is no plan and you know it. I just need to figure out how to ruin her. She must have a weakness. Everyone has a weakness, I just need to find it.”
He nods “And we will figure it out together. Let us go back to Rex and Darrien and then we can talk it through. Don’t just act rashly right now.”
I know he is right but I am scared that if we go outside, we might not get the chance to come back inside the house. The door to the room is just staring me in the face, all I have to do is open it up. I have the book with me and this time, I intend to use is wisely. Going back into the room will help us figure things out. It will help us free all the spirits and find whatever is making her so strong.
“She has a book, one just like this one. It is in that room. I saw it the last time.” Gyles tells me.
“Let us get it.” I encourage him and head over to the direction of the door. I feel him stiffen against my touch before we even reach the shelf that has the door. I turn to him slowly and he is looking away from me. I pull him closer to me until his eyes are on me “What is wrong?’’ I ask him worriedly.
He shakes his head immediately “I don’t want to go back in there, I don’t think it is a good idea for us to go back in there.’’
He is scared and that is completely understandable. I am scared too but my will to end this all is stronger than my fear. My mother thinks I am weak, that she will always win in this fight—if she even thinks this is a fight. To her, I am just her child that is being stubborn. That is all I will always ne to her. A child that can’t do anything.
“I don’t want to leave you out here, I don’t want to part from you but I also need to go back to that room. That might just be the only way we can end all this.”
The certainty in the sound of my voice makes it seem like I even know what the hell I am doing but I know that this is another trial and error. I have no choice but to do this but I also don’t want to leave Gyles alone. I don’t even want to part from him for even a second.
“I am here with you, you have to trust me,’’ I cup his face in my hands as he clutches unto the book. It seems like he has more of a bond with the book than me—I mean, I can get that, he was inside the book for hours.
“That’s not the point, there is just someth8ig about the place. Something that creeps me out. A smell that I have been unable to get out of my system. Terrible things happened inside that place and I don’t want to have to go back there again.’’
This is supposed to come as a shock to me, considering the only reason we actually came back to the coven is because of Gyles. He wanted to. In fact, he mandated us to come back. I have no regrets because she needs to pay but we also need to end this.
“I can wait for you in the shed with Rex. I don’t want to go back in there.’’ He shakes his head again, even though I am still holding his face.
’Babe, I want you with me, I can’t do this without you,’’ I manage in desperation.
“What exactly do you think you are doing?’’ I hear her voice before I see her and my heart races to the sound of it. We both turn around immediately, all the fear that I tried to push away resurfaces. I needed to get the book to get her at her weakest but now we have nothing.
My mother walks over to us slowly with a smile on her face. She is in her true form, not in the guise of Badger, the way she has been since we got here. She is happy, happy to always be one step ahead of us.
“Hello son,’’ she smiles.
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