Chapter 326

Levine.
Another three months fly by and I notice all the changes in Analise. I notice the changes in her body. She acts like it is all not obvious. I know the signs. I am not stupid but she must think that I am because as the only person she talks to, I expected her to talk to me about this. Our training is almost over, Mother has never been more proud of anyone than she is with Lissy—not like I care. I am just glad that in a couple of months, I will have the chance to be free from all the drama that comes from being a witch.
Lissy has gotten so much better at her magic. Most times, when I see the excitement in her eyes. I forget how being the leader of a whole coven will not be a good idea with the way she is. I don’t want to sugarcoat things. She will be a terrible leader. The darkness inside her is too strong. Over the months, I have seen her do and say things that make me even more scared of her.
After our training, we walk side by side down the halls. There is a smile on her face. “You and Badger are going steady,’’ she mutters as we walk. I wanted the walk to be in silence. I don’t want to have to ask her about what I think is going on with her but her trying to spike up a conversation just gave me the leeway.
“Not really,’’ I shrug like it is no big deal. It is actually a big deal to me and even though we haven’t labelled our relationship because of the big elephant in the room. I am still in a happy place in my life. You see, everyone wants Analise to end up with Badger. It is the smart choice—for both families. It will be a disappointment if anyone ever finds out that we are dating.
“Oh really? Then why do you have dreamy eyes just from mentioning his name?’’ she raises a brow but there is a smile on her face. This is amusing to her. My embarrassment. This is the first time I have taken an interest in anything. All thanks to Badger.
“No one can find out.’’
“Why not just grow some balls and tell mother that you like the guy?’’ she rolls her eyes. That is something that will be easy for Lissy. She doesn’t keep things inside. She would rather say how she is feeling than keep it inside.
That is how I know so much about how interested in death she is.
“Because I am not you,’’ I retort.
She scoffs “Isn’t that a good thing. You have no pressure to be perfect. You can do your own shit and not give a damn.’’
I don’t want to tell her that she is the one that chose all the pressure that has been put on her. I don’t want to tell her that because I know she will be upset “What is going on with you?’’ I ask her wanting to change the topic. Badger is the one that wants to keep this a secret. He is the one that suggested it. so I can’t really go against him right now. I like where we are. It’s a really great place and I don’t want to ruin it.
“What do you mean?’’
I raise a brow. Deep down, she knows what I am talking about. The sudden weight gain. The cravings and change in her moods. I know it all.
“You know what I mean Lissy. You have never been one to hide anything from me.’’ I tell her with a glare. She knows what I am referring to. The question is, is she willing to tell me what it is?
We stop in front of my room and she grabs my hand in hers and pulls me in the opposite direction. We keep walking until she leads me into the basement. There are a lot of rooms in the basement, the second we stop in front of the door, I know where we are.
No one is allowed in this room.
Hence why it is always locked.
Father has warned us to stay away from it. Bad things happen in this room. Things that no one really talks about.
I push her grip off me immediately “What are we doing here Analise?’’ I ask her. My heart is racing right now from the fear of the unknown. I don’t know why she brought me here but I know she is up to no good.
“Do you trust me?’’ she asks with a calm smile.
I take a deep breath.
No.
“You know I do,’’ I lie. I need her to trust her because it is better for me to know what she is doing. Better for me to handle things before she takes them too far.
“Then come on.’ I watch her as she conjures a spell. The lock shifts immediately. I don’t even know how to do that. She must be practising a lot on her own.
Once we are inside the room, I feel the chills immediately. The environment is cold and dark. Makes me even see more reason as to why they wouldn’t want anyone in here. What the fuck are we doing here?
“Lissy, this is insane. Mother will kill us if she finds out that we were in here,’’ I reprimand her.
She nods “I know, that is why she is not going to find out.’’
I gulp down my nerves because at this point I just want her to tell me what is going on already. She is delaying this and it is driving me insane.
“Why are we here Lissy?’’ I ask her again.
I don’t even want to look around because I don’t want to know what this place entails. It looks like a library. A very scary library but whatever those books carry must be dangerous.
“As you can already tell, I am pregnant.’’ She raises her oversized shirt up and points to her stomach. I look at it and see the tiny bump.
“That doesn’t explain why we are here.’’
She smiles and then nods grabbing my hand again, leading me further into the room “Obviously, I am not going to keep it. I found a spell. Death is the easiest spells to come across and you are going to help me with it,’’ I stiffen in her grip at her words.
She can’t be serious right now.
I am not helping her with an abortion.