Chapter 364

Alanis
“What do you mean?’’ I manage in confusion.
I don’t know how easy it is to reject a link. It has to be the hardest thing a vampire can do. the fact that she seems to think that is what is happening might not even be the case.
He might not even know that he is doing that.
I need to find a way to have a conversation with Belis when he wakes up.
“He doesn’t want me anymore,’’ she gestures with her hands as she adds “He doesn’t want me. he is tired of it all.’’
Her words confuse me.
Belis is the one that seems to have his shit together. what she is saying right now, paints a different picture from what I have seen all this while.
My hand is still on her shoulder. I am trying to give her the comfort that I think she needs but I don’t even have the right words to say. she needs someone that understands what she is going through and I am in a healthy relationship. I am the happiest I have ever been, so I can’t really understand what she is going through.
“Have you talked to him about all this?’’
She sniffs and then wipes the tears from her eyes “I don’t know what else to do. I have tried to find ways to spice up our relationship but he tells me that he is lonely. How can you be lonely and be in a relationship at the same time?”
I pull her into my arms and she cries even more. This is the only comfort I have for her right now. I don’t want to act like I know what to say but I want to help them in any way that I can.
She pulls away from me after she has stopped crying “I need to go home. Will you bring him back when he wakes up?’’
I nod and she walks out of the room. I leave Belis and walk back to the living room where everyone is settled. Father is the first person to stand up. I don’t look at Beau because I need to let his actions sink in. I want him to worry and panic. Until he thinks about what he has done and has regrets. I get that he was fighting for me but I just want him to learn control. Resist using his fists all the time.
“How is he?’’ Father asks worriedly.
“He is healing. Give him about another thirty minutes.’’ I assure them because I can tell that they are all worried. “You all should head on home. I will bring him back myself.” I add because I don’t want anything else to mess up this night.
Father smiles “It was nice coming here. I think this is something we should do frequently.”
I nod in agreement even though I think this will be too exhausting to make a regular thing. I did this because I wanted to know that Father had accepted Beau and now that I know. I like the distance. I know they will always be there for me and vice versa.
“Come on you lot,’’ He orders Eligio and Elu. Everyone stands up and I walk them out of the house and to the gates of the compound, I notice that Beau doesn’t come with me. Maybe he is feeling a lot worse than I thought. Once father, and the rest leave, Darrien speaks up “We will spend the night here,’’ he tells me, grabbing Jabi and pulling him closer to him. Jabi hides in his chest and I manage a smile.
“Don’t be too rough on your guy. He was only protecting you. Lord knows I would have done the same thing if Belis had laid a finger on my baby,’’ he nudges Jabi and I roll my eyes because I actually believe that this is something that he would do. Darrien doesn’t sugarcoat things or pretend and that was one of the reasons why I disliked him but now, it is the one reason why I like him—that and his loyalty.
“Thanks for showing up… even though you showed up too late.”
“Anytime Bro.”
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I walk back into the house and Beau is not in the living room anymore where we left him. I go in search of him, worried that he is beating himself up for his actions. Yeah, I want him to think about what he did but I don’t want him to go back to that space, the one where he starts to become insecure.
I check every room for him, he is nowhere in this house. I start to worry because that will mean he is outside. I channel my link to him and I see him—which just means that he didn’t completely shut me out. He wanted me to know where he is. I see him in the field, I see him running. I feel the pain in his heart. The connection we have lets me know that he hates himself right now. I don’t ever want him to feel that way.
I run out of the house until I get to the field. I see him, and he doesn’t stop running. The speed at which he goes lets me know that he wants to burn all the steam. The anger, he is trying to suppress it again.
After about fifteen minutes, he stops running and faces me. his eyes are red, sweat trickles down his bare chest. The shorts he has on are soaked around the waist. I don’t need to say anything to him as he slowly walks over to me. I don’t care that he is a mess right now as I take him in my arms. He holds unto me and no apology is needed. At that moment, everything is forgotten. I don’t want to dwell on what has happened. All I know is that he knows that he has done wrong and that is all that matters.