Chapter 623

Jabi
This is what I wanted.
Okay, maybe I didn’t think it would go this way but I at least wanted to make sure that they had a conversation about the past. I wanted to give Dar closure and it seems like I didn’t even need to try too hard.
The truth.
What happened all those years ago?
I thought I would have to warn Amber that she should stay away from my man but she didn’t come here to fight. She didn’t come here to stake her claim like I did. When I said that I don’t have any issues with her, I meant it. I genuinely don’t hate her. How can I hate someone that helped me? Someone that loved the person that I loved. As long as she wasn’t a threat to Darrien or our relationship. I could never hate her.
“That is why I didn’t look for you. I didn’t want to be a hindrance to your happiness.” The words flow out of her mouth so easily but I believe her. I don’t know why but it doesn’t seem to me like she is lying.
I sense the honesty in her tone and it might be wrong of me to assume but I do.
“That doesn’t make any sense.’’ He shakes his head in disbelief.
He has lost trust in her. I can see it but he needs to let go of the past and this is the only way that he will.
“You don’t have to believe me D, but that’s what happened. I didn’t even know that you saw my findings. I didn’t know that you knew about that. I just thought you had found him,’’ she looks away from him and her voice lowers “I just thought you had left me because of him.”
I see the tears through her light.
She might not be here but I feel her pain.
She is hurting right now and she is not doing this to be vindictive. She genuinely wants him to be happy.
“Fuck, this makes it worse. I have gone on for so long hating you and you are telling me that I can’t do that anymore?”
He is beating himself up for this.
“I wish you wouldn’t hate me. I wish you can forgive me for the past.’’
Words.
They might just be words but they gut at my soul. This is Darrien’s ex. She should be a threat to me but all I feel is a pain for her.
I want him to forgive her so badly.
I don’t mind if they become friends.
I want her to be happy.
He runs his fingers through his hair “What am I supposed to do now. How am I supposed to just let it go?”
I am not needed here. I am just watching the scene play out and there isn’t even a shred of jealousy inside me. Darrien has had relationships, he has lived a long life. One that I didn’t even belong in. Our life just started, so it is not like I never expected him to have just waited for me to arrive.
“You don’t have to. You just have to forgive me,’’ she walks over to him until she is in front of him.
I watch them, almost like I am holding my breath. Waiting for this to end. I want him to forgive her too.
I want him to let go of the anger he has been carrying.
“Please,” she adds, slowly reaching for his arm. I watch him and he doesn’t push her away from him.
“I am sorry D, I am so sorry.’’ she closes her eyes and I watch them silently. They don’t need me to say anything. He doesn’t need me to push him right now. He will do this on his own. He is ready to forgive her.
Nothing else needs to be said.
He is going to let this go. Let the past go and I can see it in his eyes. I see the pain that she must have caused but I also see acceptance and forgiveness. “Thank you,’’ she voices out croakily.
The tear stains on her cheeks are like drawings on a painting. She looks mystical, if I didn’t know that this was magic, I would be in complete awe. Darrien doesn’t touch her, he doesn’t say a word but I understand him completely. A part of me was worried that something bad would come from this. I mean, it seems like whenever we are catching a break, something always comes around but I am putting all the negativity behind me.
Letting go of all the bad things and moving on. That is the only way that I will be truly happy in the community. I hated this place and maybe a part of me still feels that way because of the way omegas are treated but I need to look at the positives, Beau is different—he is doing things differently and that should count for something. He wants me as a part of his family, he has always treated me like family, even when everyone seemed to think that he was wasting his time with me.
He saw that I was worth it and that is all I should remember from this place. I don’t need to remember all the people that told me I wasn’t. The people that thought I would eventually die alone.
That doesn’t matter anymore.
Amber turns to me and her smile radiates through the room “Thank you Jabi,’’ she calls out my name for the first time and it sounds so familiar.
I feel a warmth that I didn’t think I would feel.
She doesn’t wait for me to say anything else as she disappears like a flash out of the room. I walk over to Darrien and he pulls me into his arms immediately. He is not crying but he looks very emotional right.
“I hated her for so long. Meeting you made me hate her even more. She almost took you away from me.’’
I know that he keeps thinking about what she almost did but I’d like to think that no matter what has happened, I would have still found my way to him. Our love is too strong, stronger than her magic.
It will stand the test of time.
“I love you.”
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