Chapter 212

Gyles
I am nervous about this outing. It is not a date but it feels like one. Maybe I agreed to this because of the opportunity to see Rex. he has been avoiding me for the past two weeks. I don’t know why but a part of me feels like he is giving me some space with Blue.
He is on board this whole throuple relationship. He wants us to bond. Have a relationship, so that we could all be together. I am so far from that because I don’t believe in this.
You know it is real.
My wolf interrupts my thoughts. I don’t want to acknowledge him because for the past two weeks. He has been silent and now because I am thinking about them—or should I say, denying my feelings, he decides to say something.
You know you don’t want me to come out. There is nothing I can do if you won’t let me.
He says a lot more than I expected. I shake his voice out of my head because maybe he is right. I don’t know if am ready for all this—I don’t know if I ever will be ready. I just want to live a peaceful life, away from all the problems. I thought I could have that with Rex. hanging out with him was easy. I felt a certain joy that I haven’t felt in a long time and now I have to just accept that this is because of the mating force.
I hate the whole thing and they don’t seem to understand how I feel. They can’t just choose who I end up with. I want that for myself. I don’t like the oppression.
This is not oppression. It is destiny.
I ignore the thoughts. The manipulations of my wolf. I don’t want to know what he thinks. I have my opinions and they don’t involve being with all three of them. I want to convince Rex to choose me. I want him to see that there is something between us, that doesn’t have to involve Blue.
I don’t like that I am singling him out but I don’t want to open my heart to him. I don’t want them both. one is enough for me and I want Rex.
You can’t choose.
My wolf shouts at me. I have never felt him angrier. This date is just a way to appreciate Blue for all his help—or maybe attempted help. He said he would help me with my wolf but it feels like I am farther away from exploring that part of me. I dress up in a pair of jeans and a shirt because I don’t want it to look like I didn’t make an effort. The fact that I will get to see Rex is exciting to me.
I have missed him so much.
After about thirty minutes of waiting, there is a knock on the door. I run over to the door because I feel his scent outside. Rex smiles when he sees me. his cheeks are red, he is totally blushing.
“Hey,’’ he breathes out. I walk over to him and pull him into my arms immediately. touching him has been like some forbidden act. The only time I saw him all through this week was once when he brought drinks for us at the field. He didn’t even look at me and I didn’t want to push things.
Now he is here, away from Blue and I feel like I can touch him. he wraps his arms around me slowly and I feel him give in. I don’t know why he has been acting up with me but I don’t care. Just having this moment with him is enough. It is all I could ask for.
After a couple of minutes and steady breathings, he retreats away from me slowly “Blue is getting the car around,’’ he tells me. I totally forgot that he was going to be on this date with us.
“I just want to be with you,’’ I confess even though I know he might not like it.
“He said you agreed to the three of us.’’
I nod “Because I knew you would be there. I just wanted to spend some time with you. can it just be the two of us?’’
This is not what I want. I want them both.
My wolf shouts at me. it feels like I have been testing his patience. Doing things that I know he wouldn’t want. I mean, what is the worst thing that he could do?
I will lock you up, the way you have been me.
He warns me.
It feels like a threat but I am not the least bit scared. I am in control of my body, in control of my actions. No one can tell me what to do. Not even this monster inside me.
“I don’t want this is if it just the two of us. I want you both,’’ he tells me.
I hate this.
I hate this so much.
Choose me.
For once, just fucking choose me.
I have those thoughts but I don’t have the courage to say them out loud. I want him to choose me, even though he is giving in to his wolf. Even though he wants us both—does that make me selfish?
Yes.
The look on his face tells me that he is never going to choose me. he has already made up his mind and if I disagree with him. I will end up alone. I don’t know how long I can drag this until I have to leave but I want to be with him. I like him a lot and I don’t want to lose that just yet.
“Okay,” I agree defeatedly.
He smiles and he is back in my arms again. This time, he places a soft kiss on my lips—being the greedy man that I am, I pull into him for a deeper kiss and he doesn’t fight back as I slide my tongue into his mouth. The gasp that escapes his lips tells me that he wants me as much as I want him. I will give myself to one of them. I don’t have to give in to the two of them. Blue will feel it. he will be the outcast and he will leave.
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