Chapter 256

Gyles.
Rex comes back into the room after about an hour. I came out of the bathroom and the first thing I did was look for him. I took a while in the shower, so I didn’t even know where to start looking for him. I check by the car we packed and he wasn’t there, I check all around the motel, searching for him but to no avail. I was almost about to call Blue before he walked into the room as if nothing happened. There is a nonchalant expression on his face like he didn’t disappear for over an hour.
“Where the fuck were you,’’ I walk over to him and grab him by his arm. I didn’t even realize that my heart was thumping so heavily. I don’t know why I was thinking the worst with my worries. I am just associated with bad news and I just thought something terrible had happened to him.
“What do you mean? I went to get my bag,’’ for the first time since he walked into the room, I notice the bag on his other hand.
“I went to the car; I didn’t see you,’’ I tell him, my voice still shaking from the fear inside me. I have to stop thinking the worst but I don’t know what to expect with this sudden happiness. I have known happiness all my life and that happiness always ends up flying away from me. I was happy with Roger before he was taken away from me. I finally found happiness again with my father and he got taken away from me too. I am happy again. This time, this is the happiest I have ever been and I don’t want the same fate. I want things to be different. I want to be with them for the rest of my life. I don’t want this happiness to be taken away from me.
He furrows his brow in confusion like he doesn’t understand what I am saying “I don’t think I have been gone for that long,’’ he pauses and I watch him take a deep breath, he opens his eyes “oh, I called Blue, a=maybe that is why I have been gone for so long,’’ he adds but it just seems unlikely to me.
I am already suspicious and I don’t even know where he went. “Why did you call him?’’ I ask him raising my brow in question.
His cheeks redden and I see the guilt in his eyes. “Did you tell him we were coming?’’ I ask him in addition. If he told Blue then he would be expecting us. It might not be a bad thing but I just really wanted to surprise him. I didn’t want him to turn me back. I know that is a possibility. He could be organizing our departure before we even show up.
“Never. I just wanted to return his calls.’’
“Are you sure about that, seems like you went out to keep me from your conversation with him?’’
He rolls his eyes; I see the flicker underneath the glasses. He is acting weird and I don’t know why.
“I was jealous, okay.’’
Okay, that is admittance to why he is acting weird but I don’t know why he would be jealous. I should be the one jealous. Blue and Rex have a relationship that is easy and not problematic like the one I have with him. Right now, he hates me, he doesn’t even answer my calls or messages.
The only time I will hear from him is when he can’t get through to Rex.
“Jealous of what?’’
He sighs and runs his hands through his hair. I watch him because this is something I am interested in. I want to know what is going on in his head, why he will feel like I am some kind of threat to his relationship with Blue when all I want is for all three of us to be together.
“Of you… okay.’’
He walks away from me and to the bathroom shutting the door before I can stop him. I don’t even want to because right now he is vulnerable and there is nothing I can say to him to make him stop feeling this way. Blue is the only one that can give him the assurance he needs. He is the only one that he will want to hear from. I sit on the edge of one of the beds as I hear the shower running. After about fifteen minutes, he walks out of the bathroom and his eyes stop on me. I can’t read him right now but I know he is embarrassed by his outburst. I stand up from the bed and walk over to him.
He has a towel wrapped around his waist and a blank expression on his face. His body is wet and dripping. My eyes can’t help but sway to his body. The man in front of me is beautiful and it is almost like he doesn’t even know it.
“Hey,’’ I grab his hand in mine and his eyes stay fixed on me.
“We should get ready so that we can get there before it gets dark.’’ He mutters quietly but I can tell that he wants us to talk about this.
“You have nothing to worry about T-Rex,” I assure him because I am here for the two of them. There is no one more important.
He sighs “I’m sorry, it was stupid of me to say that.’’
I shake my head because I don’t want him to invalidate his feelings. He has every right to feel any form of emotion and I won’t let him think it is stupid. “No, you were right to feel excluded. I should have found a way to include you yesterday but he didn’t want to look too clingy. I swear that man is crazy about you as I am.’’ I raise his hand up until it is in front of my lips and then I kiss each of his knuckles gently. He closes his eyes and I focus on the sound of his breathing. The soft breaths he takes as I lick the water off his hands. My mouth remains on him because the pull is intense. I didn’t mean to sexualize this moment but my wolf wants him—I want him too. There is just this pull that comes with having a mate. almost like having a drug that you know, you shouldn’t take but you become addicted.
I am addicted to him right now and he needs to be the one to stop me. I take his index finger into my mouth and he gasps out in pleasure. I like the sound that comes from his lips so much. I want to hear it again. I want to send him off the wall and bring him back again.
I want to hear him scream.
Not right now.
My wolf warns me.
I think he is the only one that has a fragment of control. I open my eyes and Rex is watching me, waiting for more but I know we can’t right now. I take his finger out of my mouth and he sighs out in frustration. “You are amazing and you have nothing to worry about,’’ I continue with my boost because I need him to be okay right now.
He nods and I pull him into my arms, he welcomes me “We both love you.’’
he nods again “Promise you won’t leave me,’’ he begs, his insecurities pouring out right now. all I can think about is protecting him—both of them because I can’t stand losing them.
This time I want my happiness to last.