Chapter 329

Levine
“Can you give us a minute?’’ Badger asks her calmly.
To her, he snuck in to see me. This is something romantic and from the grin on her face, I can sense that she is happy for me. I just broke her trust and I don’t think I told the right person. It seems to me like Badger is only interested in power. Just the same way Lissy wants it. They are the perfect match. I don’t know why I am fucking involved in all this.
I just wanted Badger.
I wanted to be loved.
I don’t know what to do anymore.
Lissy raises a brow at me and then winks “I’ll give you five. Hurry up.’ She walks out of the room and Badger faces me again.
“You need to tell your mother. She will know what to do,’’ he mutters immediately she is out of earshot.
I shake my head “I can’t do that. Analise will literally kill me.’’
This is all the pent up fear. I see my sister and I see her capable of murder. I don’t want to be the one she starts it out with. I want to leave this town. I want to leave it all behind and not think about her anymore. I just want the freedom of not living in fear.
“Tell all this to your mother. You should have a long time ago.”
To me, it seems like he has known all along. Maybe not as much as I do but I see it in his eyes. There isn’t that surprise that should come from finding out your best friend is a psychopath. He only seems to care about the title.
I made a mistake trusting him.
I just got with him and maybe all the emotions have riled up my thoughts. He is right about one thing though. I need to talk to someone about this. I have to tell my dad. He is the only one in this forsaken place that I trust. He is the only one that I can actually believe will do what is best for Lissy. Right now, Lissy needs to be locked up. She needs to stop practising magic. Go on medication and maybe live a normal life.
No one believes in that here. Maybe I can try and convince dad. I don’t know what I am doing anymore.
“You have to trust me, Levine. I know what is best for this situation,’’ he grabs my hand in his again. My heart thuds against my chest. I want to trust him so badly but I don’t want to lead this coven with him. He wants that and that is far from my dream. That is far from anything I want in this lifetime.
The door opens again and Analise pokes her head inside “Get your butt out here sis.’’ She glares at me. I let out a heavy sigh and detach from Badger. He is still watching me as I walk to the direction of my door to meet my sister.
“We will talk about this later,’’ he states. There is no question in his tone. He is basically telling me that we have to talk about this.
Fuck my life.
I get out to the halls and Lissy hits me on my shoulder roughly “You fucking told him,’’ she shouts so loud, that I am sure the whole house heard her. I rub the arm that she hit, terrified to even look at her. She should be angrier than she is.
“How in love are you that you would go and tell Badger an hour after I tell you?’’ she stops walking and faces me. There is an angry expression on her face. I deserve this. I mean she is right. The only reason I told him is because of the love bubble I was in. now I know that I made a mistake.
“I am sorry Lissy. I just needed to talk to someone about it. Someone other than you,’’ I add.
She rolls her eyes “You know that Badger is my best friend. I would have told him eventually.’’ She shrugs like she is not even upset that I told him everything.
I take a deep breath.
“You’re not upset?’’
She hits my arm again. This time, a lot rougher. “Of course I am. I trusted you.’’
“And now?’’
“Now I know that you are a fucking snitch. Come on,’’ she grabs my arm and roughly leads me down the stairs to the basement again. We stop in front of that room and she prepares to unlock it.
“I don’t want to be in here,’’ I plead desperate for a way out of this but I know I already agreed and she is not going to take no for an answer. She ignores my pleas and opens the door. There is a candle lit on one of the tables. Illuminating all the shelves even more.
“Did you light that?’’ I ask.
She nods “I have been doing some research on the reason why this place is so restricted.” She walks further into the room and like the fool I am, I follow her until she grabs a book from the shelf. She carries it over to the table.
“You remember what dad told us about dark magic and how it eats at your soul If you are not able to control it?’’
I nod.
She smiles “All the spells in these books are tricky and confusing. They have deeper meanings that wouldn’t be understood easily. They all have consequences.”
I look at the inscribed word on the front cover of the book. There is just one word on it. Desires. Written in a bold cursive. I get the chills from the book. My heart trembles. She is talking about dark magic and consequences and she has a fucking smile on her face. What is there to smile about?
I don’t want to mess with dark magic. I don’t want to do anything that will have repercussions.
She doesn’t even wait for a response from me as she opens the big book and starts to turn the pages “I found something that we could try. A spell,’’ she looks up at me for a second then goes back to turning the pages.
After a couple of seconds, she stops “Here it is,’’ her smile widens.
I move closer, peering at the book. At the top of the page, there is a label “The rescinding spell.’’
Just say these words and your hearts most desire will be granted.
Reversus revolvus,
Returnus resolvus,
Take me back to what I was.
What was once, is now gone
Take me back where I belong.
I stop reading, afraid to continue. Using spells is also about interpretation. Like she said. It could mean more. You can’t just eliminate a child and expect things to go spick and span.
“I am not doing this Lissy. There is no way in hell.”
“You have no choice.”
I frown. I might live my life in fear. I have always been a coward but I will not partake in this. I cannot. “Well you will have to stop me,’’ I tell her and turn in the direction of the door. I get to the door in what feels like a second but the minute I raise my hand to open the door. I feel a force, a pull so fast that I am back in front of her. Her hand is outstretched and there is a smile on her face. She pulled me back with magic. Magic that we haven’t been taught.
“Don’t make me force you to do this Levi. Just don’t.’’
It almost seems like I have no choice in this.