Chapter 354

Rex
After our shower, I feel more relaxed than I have felt all week. I guess all the tension has been released between the three of us. for the first time in my life, I am completely at peace. I don’t have a worry in my head. There is no fear, pain, just pure unfiltered happiness. I guess this is all thanks to Blue and Gyles. They have made me feel a way that no one has ever been able to make me feel.
We are supposed to head down to the kitchen but I am still terrified of Jules. Okay, maybe not terrified but he makes me feel intimidated. Almost like I want validation from him. I know he has basically accepted us—I mean, we are here, in his house. He is waiting for us before we eat.
“Hey,’’ Gyles walks up to me. Blue already went down after getting ready. He said he would be back in a couple of minutes. My hands tremble as he takes them in his. There is a smile on his face. his eyes are sharp and calling. Suddenly the fear reduces. Yeah, he hasn’t completely washed it off but I am at ease “There is nothing to be worried about,’’ he tries to assure me even though he is nervous too.
We are meeting the only family that Blue has left. Our one encounter with his mother was the worst. She looked at us like we were filth. That memory will always be etched in my brain and maybe that is why I am scared that things are going to go south here too. I mean, I have no good parental figure to look up to. Rick was the only one that was there for me and he treated me like a weak omega. Granted, that is what I was but at the end of it all. He felt more like a master than a father. Barely able to remember my own father, it is difficult for me to know what having one feels like.
“What if he doesn’t like us?’’ I ask him, showing him all my fears at this moment. I don’t have anything to hide with Blue and Gyles. I want them to see me like an open book, one that they can explore and relish in. I have nothing to hide from them and I know they feel the same way as I do.
“You are not in love with Jules. The man that just left us is the only one that matters. His father is just an added bonus and you know he will always choose us. so, you don’t have anything to worry about.’’
His words are sincere and calming. They make me feel completely better. I manage a smile even though my heart is pounding. The door opens and Blue walks in. he stops in front of the door and raises a brow in question “Are you guys conspiring against me or something?’’ he laughs nervously. Scratching the back of his neck in the process.
“Your boyfriend is nervous,’’ Gyles lets go of me softly and walks over to him, dragging him closer to me.
“Oh, boyfriend? Is that what you are?’’ he asks with a playful smile. The conversation is light and easy. This is the kind of conversation I like. I want to throw away all the seriousness that came with the past.
“I think so. I mean, he is a boy,’’ Gyles mutters with a wink. I am in the middle again but this time I am not speechless.
“I am not a friend though,’’ I interject and then cross my hands over my chest.
They both burst out in laughter. My eyes shift back and forth to their faces “So what do you want to be?’’ Gyles asks me.
I shrug “Anything but a boyfriend.”
“How about my partner?’’
I shake my head.
Blue rubs his chin, almost like he is deep in thought “Uh…my soulmate?’’
This time, I and Gyles shake our heads in unison “That is too cheesy. I mean, we get it. we are mates but do you have to spell it out like that?’’
I smile.
“Uh, I am the only one with the suggestions. Why don’t you think of something and we will see if it fits?’’ He finalizes in defeat.
“How about darling?’’ Gyles manages and I see the humor in his eyes. He is messing around and I like every bit of this.
“Hell no.” Blue shouts with a smile on his face.
“We don’t have all day; I mean how hard could it be?’’ he turns to me with a frown “You think of something. I don’t have a clue,’’ he huffs with a sigh and that just makes him look even more adorable.
I don’t believe in labels. I don’t believe in having to identify someone with a label. Boyfriend, husband…all those things shouldn’t matter. I mean at the end of the day; we know who he is to us. we don’t have to explain to anyone what this is or how we even came about. It should be known to us and us alone. A thought jumps up in my head and that brings a smile to my face.
“You are my people,’’ I breathe out. Suddenly, it seems like the room becomes even quieter. I hear their hearts beat and the sounds make mine even dance faster. “I am your person, that is all that we need to say,’’ I add and it makes sense to me. Blue’s smile widens and I can tell that he likes it.
I love it.
I will always be his and he will always be mine. just the same way I will always be Gyles’s and he will always be mine.
“I love it,’’ Gyles is the first to speak up but my eyes remain on Blue because even though he is quiet right now, I am able to read him completely. I am able to understand how he is feeling right now and I feel the same way.
Completely and irrevocably content.