Chapter 507
Darrien
I gather up all our things and we head out to the airport. There has been something going on in my mind. I have been thinking about the next step in our life, concerning Jabi’s safety. I thought it was a good idea to give him freedom, I thought having the time to figure out who he is, was the best idea but now I am not so sure. Knowing how valuable his blood is, scares me.
I don’t want word to get out.
If more vampires find out, it could be dangerous for him. I don’t want to have to keep him hidden for the rest of his life but I also want to make sure that he is safe. I think the community is the best place to make sure of that. I think we need to go back to the community and form a life there.
Our family is there, the people that would do anything for us. I know that he will be safe in the confinement of the walls. I want him to be happy and I know he likes the space we created for each other in the apartment but I also need to think strategically. I have to be an alpha. I have to decide on what is best for him and it seems to me like this might be the best thing for the both of us.
I don’t want to have to look over our shoulders for the rest of our lives. I don’t want to panic and worry that someone could be out to get him. Someone could want his blood.
It scares me to think about what could have happened if Lenny actually won. If Jabi was unable to fight. I might have never found him and I know that he can protect himself. Every time he has been in a difficult situation, he has always come out of it stronger but at the end of the day, he is still my responsibility.
I still need to protect him.
I still need to keep him hidden but I want to make sure that I do it the best way possible. I don’t want to be too strict but I also don’t want to be too lenient. Jabi listens to me, he is not so stubborn. It will be easy to convince him, I have thought about it for a while now and I know that this is the best thing to do for us.
We get to the airport with Liza. she has been very quiet.
She keeps her guard up, I know she doesn’t trust me completely and I can’t blame her, especially after everything that happened to her with Lenny. The good thing about everything is that she remembers everything about her past. She knows her family; she knows where to go. So, I wouldn’t have to look for them.
“Come on,’’ I grab Jabi’s hand in mine and he smiles warmly in a way that makes my heart thud heavily. He looks at me with a genuine smile on his face. I can tell that he is happy to leave this island.
Fuck I need to get him home because I need him in a safe space. Liza seems to understand that because she walks beside us. We board the plane and I sit down on the seat next to Jabi.
Liza is at the back of us.
I am warm, I feel safe. I have him so close to me. I can see his eyes in the light from the window. He is still smiling at me and I feel like everything is going to be ok.
I know that I still have a lot to learn but I am confident about my future. I have always been confident. It is one of the reasons why I am so arrogant.
I know that I will protect him the best way possible.
“We’re going home,’’ he breathes into my ear with excitement.
I know this is the best time to tell him about the community but I feel like he might not take it too well.
“I can’t wait to be on our bed again. I can’t wait to be in the apartment. I missed it all so much.’’ He looks at me with a smile in his eyes.
He loves it there. We made it our home.
I bring his hand to my face and kiss his knuckles softly. He does the same to mine.
I hate to say this to him but I need to tell him how I am feeling about the whole thing. I don’t want to keep this from him. I don’t want to just throw it out to him when we get back.
“What’s wrong?’’ he asks noticing my silence.
“I think it’s time that I tell you something,’’ I say carefully. I take a deep breath because I don’t like the worried look on his face.
“What’s wrong?’’ he asks calmly.
“I want us to move back to the community.’’ I go straight to the point, hit the nail on the head. There is no point in dilly-dallying.
He looks at me like I am crazy.
“What?’’ he asks confused.
“I think that we should move back to the community,’’ I say calmly.
“Why?’’
he asks.
“Because it is safe in there and we don’t have to worry about other vampires finding out about you, about your blood. I need to make sure we don’t have to worry about that.’’
he sighs, slowly letting go of my hand “So basically keep me hidden forever?’’ he asks.
“No, not forever.’’ “How long?’’
“I don’t know. I need to figure it out. I need to find out what is the best thing for us.’’
Jabi falls quiet for a second. It is evident that he is not completely sold on the idea. I know he likes the space we are in. Our private life but at the end of the day, it is not practical.
“Okay,’’ he says finally even though I can tell he is not okay with it.
I see the dejection in his eyes.
He is not happy about this.
But what can I do?