Chapter 189
Blue.
I have been thinking about him since we kissed.
It feels great to know that he feels the same way and this is not just in my head. The fact that he responded to me so well, makes me feel ecstatic. I wish he was here with me on this getaway. I didn’t really want to go but Jules dragged me along with him, the same way he dragged me along to the moonlight Pack. Yeah, our lives were at risk but I ended up meeting Rex and I have to say, it made it all worth it.
The next day, after the welcome ceremony. Walker Fields organizes a lunch between both packs. Jules has been pestering me to keep my eyes open. In case I find my mate. Well, I haven’t told him that I know who my mate is. Maybe I just want to keep it to myself for a while. My heart still throbs anytime I even think of him. His beautiful brown eyes, underneath his glasses. My wolf is completely in awe of him.
“Make sure you look around. There might be a girl to your fancy here,’’ Jules slaps my back encouragingly.
I don’t need a girl. I have someone already. I know I should tell him but I don’t know how he will take it. I don’t really have a relationship with the man. I never knew him growing up. I took this year as the time to get to know him. That is why I have been following him around. I have come to know that Jules is very lonely. He is always on his own and he might act like he is content with that but I see right through him. He has gotten so used to having me around that I don’t know how he will react when he finds out that I don’t want to leave the Moonlight community. Deciding to stay is my only way to get to know Rex. My wolf wants to rush and take things to the mating level but I want to get to know everything about him. I want to know his favourite foods, his pet peeves, what he likes in a man and if I fit into the criteria. I don’t just want to do this thing with him, half-assed. I want to take him out on a date, buy him gifts. I want to be his only source of happiness.
“What are you daydreaming about?’’ Jules interrupts my thoughts.
“Nothing,’’ I look up at him. He is rummaging through his clothes. We are supposed to be getting ready for lunch. I have been thinking of calling Rex because I haven’t heard from him since the kiss. Would that make me clingy? Maybe I should just send him a text.
Hey.
I decide on a casual message. Nothing too serious.
“Jules,’’ I call him.
He drops the t-shirt on the bed and looks at me “Yes son.’’
Hearing him call me son is still weird to me. I haven’t gotten used to it. Born in a coven of witches. I have lived with women all my life. When I found out about him, it was too late. I had already grown up. All the questions that I had as a kid were answered when he came into my life. I haven’t spoken to mom ever since I found out. That is how angry I was.
“When do you plan on leaving?’’
He mentioned that coming to the community was going to be temporary. So now that they don’t need him anymore. I am sure he will go back home. I don’t even feel at home in his house. Maybe I was meant to find out about him being my father just so I could meet Rex. At the end of it all, it is fate; which I strongly believe in.
“Next week, why?’’
I sigh. I guess I have to tell him that I intend on staying. Nothing is going to make me leave so soon. I have to stay with him. I need him.
“I was thinking of staying for a little while,’’ I breathe out the words heavily.
He furrows his brows “Why?’’ he is curious. I know anyone would be. There is no reason whatsoever why I should stay.
My phone beeps, it is probably a message from Rex. I look away from my father and straight to my messages. The message is simple. Nothing special but it brings a smile to my face.
Rex: Hi, Blue.
The same as the one I sent but it sends me over the moon. Fuck, I have it bad.
“Who are you texting?’’ Jules asks curiously.
He is suspicious. I guess I am acting suspicious “No one.”
I know he doesn’t believe me but he changes the topic back to our previous conversation “Why do you want to stay?’’
I shrug. I can’t tell him about Rex yet because I don’t want this thing to be rushed. As I said, I want to take my time. I want to take things slow because I want this to be natural. I want to fall in love with him on my own. Not because the deities said so.
“No reason in particular.”
He raises a brow. I don’t even sound the least bit believable but I hope he doesn’t question my decision “You are supposed to be getting to know me,’’ he reminds me of the reason why I am with him in the first place.
I nod my head “I know. Just a couple of weeks. I want to figure somethings out. Stay with a pack. Know how that feels. Can I?’’
I know I am guilt-tripping him. Reminding him that he doesn’t have a pack of his own. That he is all alone but this is part of the reason why I even went to live with him. He has taught me all I need to know about being a werewolf but I need more than just him. I need Rex now.
“Is there any other reason besides that?”
I shake my head. As I said, I am not letting him know about this yet. I want to take my time. I want to do this slowly.
“Alright. You can stay for two weeks but I need you back with me after that. Is that doable?”
I nod immediately. Two weeks is not enough time but I will just keep elongating it when he is not around. It is not like he would drag me away from the pack forcefully.
I look away from him and back to my phone. Quickly sending a message.
I miss you.
If anyone had told me that I would be a cheesy motherfucker, I would have scoffed in disbelief but here I am, sending cheesy messages to him and not even feeling stupid.
He replies instantly.
Rex: I miss you too. The weekend never felt longer.
The fact that he misses me too makes this all worth it. The lies, the secrets. All the shebang. I plan on basking this feeling for as long as I can. I want to be in this bubble with him for a long time.
“Your dad said you plan on staying for a while,” Beau asks. It doesn’t seem like he is opposed to it. Somehow, he seems happy about it.
The lunch goes by quickly. I am beside Beau and Jules. So I am forced to have a conversation with the two of them. Usually, I like to keep to myself. I like to do things on my own but now I have to interact with people.
“Yeah,’’ I respond.
He smiles “You know, it will be great if this could be a permanent thing. The pack could do with your skills.’’
Yeah, I am sure but that is not the reason why I am staying. I don’t tell him that because like I said. “Yeah, I want to learn a thing or two from you.” I lower my voice, shifting closer to him “I wouldn’t mind staying permanently.”
That is the plan. I want to make a home with him. I want to have a life with Rex. It is like the only thing I am looking forward to and I just found out yesterday.
“Because of Rex?’’
My eyes shoot up to his face. It seems like I have been caught. I didn’t want anyone to know yet. So much for keeping things low key.
“What are you talking about?’’
He chuckles “I know when someone has found their mate. I could tell from the beginning. You don’t have to hide it from me.”
I sigh “Can you just keep this a secret for now?’’
He nods “Your secret is safe with me.” he winks. I am certain he is glad to be the first to know. When I think about the Alpha of a pact. I think of strict and unfriendly but Beau is the opposite. He is easy to talk to.
I reach for my phone. It has been a while since I heard from him. “I’ll be back in a second.’’
I walk out of the dining room until I am outside. The cool air hits me. I dial Rex’s number and it rings immediately. Hearing his voice will even be better than texting.
“Hello,’’
I freeze at the voice that answers. It is unrecognizable to me.
“Who is this?’’