Chapter 320
Rex
“I am not going anywhere.” I sit up on the bed. My mind is made up. I am not scared of anything anymore and I will not let him convince Gyles that the best thing for him is our absence. He is trying to be a hero but we don’t need a hero. We need to be together. I have seen Beau and Alanis and they are only stronger together.
We had Cassius in the community. Uncle Fallon is still a threat. He is acting as if the community is the safest place for me when in reality, being with them is the safest thing for me. No one cares about me as much as Blue and Gyles. They are the only ones that will fight for me until death, being together is all we need to overcome this.
Gyles is with me on this. He doesn’t want to take me. He knows that staying here with Blue is the best bet for all of us.
“You’re awake,’’ he manages at the same time, he runs his hands through his hair. I am exhausted. My bones hurt. It feels like I have just run a marathon on low fuel. I am hungry and weak and frankly just tired of everything but if I have to give my all to this argument, then I would. I would make sure I convince him that I won’t leave. I will do everything in my power to fight him on this.
“Blue why do you keep pushing us away,’’ Gyles speaks up. His voice is firm, he is trying to be assertive.
“I am not pushing you away. All I do is for the two of you.” he is still on the bed. His eyes are stuck on Gyles. He knows that if he can convince Gyles, he will be able to convince me. To him, Gyles is the problem. The stubborn one. I am just someone that would listen. No matter what. He has another thing coming this time. I am not going to leave. The moment Levine did this to me, I became involved and I will not leave until she is captured.
I will not leave until everything is resolved.
There is no way in hell, he is not going to convince me to leave him alone in this place. Everybody is mischievous. He is not safe here and he could end up like his mother. I will not let that happen. I will not let anything happen to him.
What do you plan to do here?
My wolf asks me.
I know that I am weak and not the best person to protect anyone. I know to Blue I am just a burden and maybe that is why he wants to send me away but I will never forgive myself, If anything happens to Blue while I am away, how will I live with myself. How will I forgive myself for deserting him?
“Then don’t send us away. We can help you. We want to be here with you.’’
Blue sighs loudly.
“Someone is controlling you. You killed my mother Rex. Yeah, I know it wasn’t on you but I can’t have people make you do things. What if Gyles is next?’’
He is trying to hurt me right now. He is trying to make me feel so guilty that I will agree to his demands “The problem is, you don’t trust us to do anything.’’
Gyles is doing the same thing.
They are both trying to manipulate the situation. This is not how I want this to go. I don’t want to guilt-trip him. I don’t want him to agree on formality. I want him to want us here. I want our presence to be needed.
“This is not about trust. It is my duty to protect you,’’ he turns to me. His eyes are red “It is my duty to protect both of you.’’
“Why is it your duty? Who made you responsible?’’ I ask him because I want to know why he decided to carry it all on his shoulders. We are together in this. Not one person and he is acting like everything is on him.
“Because you are my only family. I don’t want anything to happen to you both.”
“And what about you, who is going to protect you?’’ Gyles asks him exactly the thoughts running through my head. He seems to think he is the only one that worries. He thinks he is the only one that is hurting.
“As long as the two of you are okay. I will be too.’’
“Stop being so stubborn. Stop thinking the world revolves around you and your one problems. I am tired of having to explain that we are in this together. Get it to your head now.’’ Gyles shouts so loud, his voice echoes through the wall. As if I said, Gyles is the stubborn one. He is the one that would need convincing.
My heart thuds in my chest. I hear the pounding in the silence that comes next. Suddenly, I feel another presence inside me. Everything we discussed is suddenly unimportant as something significant happens inside me. “I feel her,’’ I interrupt their stare fest. Blue is the first one to blink as he turns to me immediately, his brows furrowed.
“Huh?’’ he asks still breathing heavily. The conversation is not what he wanted. I know he thought it would be easier now that Gyles is trying but I also knew that Gyles wouldn’t just give in.
“Levine…” I pause and take a deep breath as the pounding in my chest intensifies. At this point, they are both watching me. “I feel Levine right now. I know where she is.’’ I tell them as the pictures in my head get clearer. I don’t know if this is another trick but for the first time since this happened to me, I am in control of my surroundings. I know everything that is happening and it is either because she wants me to see this or she is getting weaker.
It is a good thing.