Chapter 405
Blue
Your mother took over someone’s body.
I don’t have all the answers but she is still alive, she still has all the power. She won in the end.
Those words have been seeping through my mind all night.
Fuck.
I don’t know what to believe.
I am tired of her haunting me.
Her death gave me an escape and now Gyles is saying she never died. How am I supposed to handle that now?
“We need to find out more about this,” Rex says, he is trying to be strong. I can see the confusion in his eyes.
I am staring at Gyles and he is still looking down at his hands. I don’t know what to say. I don’t know what to believe anymore.
I thought that if we could find out more about the woman, things would get clearer but this is all a mess.
“How are we supposed to do that?’’ I ask him, wanting to hear his take on this. I left the coven with no intentions of ever going back. Yeah, at that moment, it seemed like I was running away from all my problems. I took the two most important people in my life and left the place that was once home, even though I was too sure that Badger needed to be stopped. But now, I am starting to think that maybe, I should have stayed. It is almost like we let the bad guy win at the end and maybe this is the punishment I get for being a coward.
“I don’t know, we might have to go back,’’ he mutters quietly. there is dread in his tone, he doesn’t want to go back to the coven–hell, I don’t even want to step foot in that hell but now it seems like Gyles is tethered to the place because of that book. I am the one that brought the book to the coven, I am the one that caused all this.
“I am not taking you guys back to that place. there is no way I will risk your lives again.’’ I shake my head immediately. I am the only one that is going to go back home. I don’t want a situation where they get hurt again because of me.
“We are not letting you go without us, there is no way that will happen.” he shakes his head and I know he is not kidding. If I go back, they will be by my side.
“No, I am not putting you two at risk again,” I say and he shakes his head.
He is not taking no for an answer.
“We will figure this out together. You are doing that thing again where you feel the need to handle it all on your own.’’
I sigh “She is my mother; I need to handle this on my own.’’
“And we are your mates, we need to be there for you. There is no other way.’’
“Can we not even talk about this right now, I don’t even want to think about going back to that place,’’ Gyles speaks up, cutting our argument short.
I look at Gyles and he is shaking his head. Something just dawns on me, going back is the only way we can free him from this hold. I don’t know of any other option.
“What can I do now, to make you feel better?’’ I ask him because I want him to forget about all the things he saw.
“It is almost a full moon, can we do the ceremony before we go back?’’ he asks me, his eyes meeting mine. my heart thuds against my chest at the excitement of the prospects.
I want that so badly.
“Can we do that?’’ Rex asks and I nod my head.
“Yes, we can speak to Alby, find out what we need to do. I want this too,’’ I tell them both joyously.
we have been so busy with everything else that we have been putting this on the back burner.
I don’t want to think about the fact that my mother is still alive and that she is out there somewhere.
I just want to have a moment with my mates right now doing the pone thing we have talked out about for so long. I heard from Blue that the ritual is supposed to make us stronger. I need all the strength I can get to protect them.
My wolf is not at its strongest–in fact, it is in the weakest state I have ever seen. I have been trying to hold it together for some time now. I am an alpha but it doesn’t even feel like it.
Yeah, after I found out about my Lycan side, I connected with my wolf but lately, I have been feeling very disconnected. I don’t know if I am the one causing the distance between us or if it is something else.
I am just trying to protect the two people that mean the most to me in this world and I know that I am not doing a very good job. I need to be stronger.
I am hoping that the ritual will help me get back to where I need to be. I have no idea what will happen when I perform the ritual but I need to do something.
“Let’s go see Alby, we will start the process as soon as possible,” I say and I can see relief in both of their eyes.
I know they want this just as much as I do.
I am not sure what I would do without them.
This mating ritual is going to be the beginning of our union. I am excited and happy for what is yet to come.
We get to the front of Alby’s house and I turn to Gyles. He is looking at me and I watch as his lips tilt upwards and a smile spreads on his face. He is excited about this too.
That’s good.
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