Chapter 486
Darrien
“You can’t just go looking for him when you don’t have any leads,” Beau tells me but I am at this point in my life where I have nothing else but him. Lenny is messing with me and maybe this is the reaction that he wants. This is the reaction that I am going to give him.
I will find Jabi and I will fucking kill Lenny.
“I don’t give a shit, I need to find him,’’ I try to calm my breathing but I can’t. I am going insane with anger. I want to hurt him so badly, rip him into a million pieces.
“What is going on?’’ Alanis walks out of the house when he sees me with Beau.
Beau looks at me but I can’t keep this from Lanis “Jabi is missing. Someone took him. I need to find him,’’ I tell him immediately even though Beau is against it.
“How is that possible?’’ he asks immediately.
“I have called a meeting, it happened in the community, which doesn’t make sense because the gates were guarded.”
“Yeah, and did you get any leads? Like who took him?’’
“I know who fucking took him but I can’t sense him. I don’t know where they are, I don’t know what he fucking wants. I don’t know what to do.” I run my hands through my hair in frustration.
“Calm down, Darrien. Beau is right. You can’t just go looking for him when you don’t know where he is.’’
“I can’t just sit here and do nothing, Beau. He is my mate. I have to bring him home. How would you feel if someone took your babies if someone took Alanis?” “Then you need to get some leads, you need to find a way to feel him, that is the only way you will be able to find him.’’ He is right, I know he is right, but I can’t just sit around and wait for him to come home. “I am going to find him. I am going to find Jabi. I will find help. I am going to find a way.’’
I am going to find a way, I am going to find a way. My voice is telling me to calm down but I can’t.
I leave them because I don’t want anyone to see me this way. I just want to find him and make sure he is okay. I know what Lenny is using him for. He is literally going to be a blood bank to him. That is all he wants, his blood.
I walk all the way to the gates and go into my car. I grab my phone from my pocket and dial the only person I can think of that I can trust.
“Amber, it is Darrien.’’
Amber is not someone I want to call. She is someone that I would only call when I am desperate and right now, I have never been more desperate for her help.
I hear her breathing through the phone and I know she is hesitant to do this for me. She will be reluctant to help me and that is fine, I don’t care.
Our relationship is complicated. The kind of relationship that should have never happened but she is the only person I have ever trusted. She is not a typical good person but she was good to me.
“It has been decades, it must be important,’’ she sighs into the phone finally. I know she also doesn’t want to hear from me either. Our story is not one that I like to revisit. I don’t even want to think about it but I know she is the only one that can help me.
“I know, trust me I know this is not the best idea I have ever had and I know you don’t want to see me, I know we have history but I wouldn’t be calling you if I didn’t need your help right now.”
“You found her,’’ she breathes into the phone. I feel the pain etched in her voice but I can’t think about how hurt she is at that thought. I can’t think about how I always knew that we would never be each other’s links. I can’t think about how I left her in the dead of the night with no choice.
I can only think about Jabi–my happiness and how he could be hurt right now.
“Can I come over? I need your help,’’ I repeat, not answering her question. “Darrien, what the hell is going on?’’
“Can you just tell me that you won’t turn me away? I need you to tell me that you can’t turn me away. I need you to tell me you will help me. I need you to tell me that you won’t turn me away because I am going crazy.’’ I tell her immediately.
Even Amber has never seen me vulnerable. Jabi is the only person that has ever seen me like this and because of him, I am showing her something that I never used to before. “I am going to help you,’’ she whispers into the phone.
I start the car with the phone still presses to my ear.
“Come over Darrien.”
I end the call and start the drive, calling Amber is my last resort and it is something that I need to do to find him. I know she is the only one that can help me as quick as I need. I know she is the only one that will be able to trace him.
I might come to regret this decision but as long as I have him, alive and well. I will take the chances.
This is my fault.
I am the one that left him alone. I should have known better. There is no time for the blame game but I need to find him. I need to get him safely back to me. I drive like a maniac, I drive to her house and silently hope that she helps me with this.