Chapter 490
Darrien
I look around the room, I look everywhere in the house for anything that could be used as a personal object to find him. I am not thinking straight and Beau and Alanis can see that but I will not stop until I find him.
I will not stop until I get him back.
“Yo, you need to calm down. You are doing that thing where you don’t think with your brain. You are irrational right now and we can’t help you if you are this way.’’
Alanis tells me, following me on my search.
“Do you have any ideas? Do you know how I can find him?’’
He has a sad expression on his face and that gives me the answer I need “Blue is looking for a solution. The good thing about this is that he is not going to kill him. He needs him for his blood, so he will keep him alive,’’ he rationalizes.
I glare at him because he is not making any fucking sense. I don’t care that he is still alive because Lenny needs him. I need him back; I need him away from this mess.
I want my baby back.
“I can’t wait for Blue to figure something out, I will get Amber to find him, she is the only one that can help me find him.’’
he furrows his brows and I regret telling him about her “Amber?’’ he questions with a curious stare. Alanis knows who she is, everyone in my family knows Amber. So, he would know that I must have been desperate to bring her back to my life again. I nod and look back at the drawers. I am looking for anything that we could use.
“Why would you go to Amber?’’ he asks me.
I shrug “You know I had no choice.’’
He scoffs “Dude, anyone but Amber. This is the wrong move and you know it.”
Alanis wouldn’t understand, no one can understand how I feel right now and maybe I will regret bringing Amber back into my life but at least, Jabi will be with me again. That is the only thing that matters to me and no one seems to understand. I walk into the small closet. There are a few things here but this isn’t really the place we call home. Jabi has never felt at home here, so I don’t even know if I will find anything here. I hear Alanis’s footsteps as he walks to the door.
“What did she say?’’ he sighs and I turn to him as he runs his hands through his hair.
My eyes go back to the clothes that are hanging. Nothing here is going to help me. I will never be able to find him at this pace.
“She couldn’t find him with his shirt, she is usually able to find people with their belongings. She said there is some force blocking her.” He shakes his head and looks at me. There is a very serious look on his face as if he is about to say something.
“Blue is working on it. He mentioned something about a locating spell. Give him some time to get the ingredients. He is the best bet. You have to have a little faith in your family.”
It has been two days already. I have gotten no leads. I went to the school. I asked around, no one even knows who Lenny is. He is suddenly a ghost.
I sit down on the floor upon the realization that I am fucked. Jabi is all alone, scared and I don’t know how to find him. I have always prided myself, just knowing that we were connected and it doesn’t make any sense to me that someone can just tether that bond. Choose to block our connection with evil.
There has to be a way, that we can prevent things like this.
I can’t just lose him every time someone feels like they want to hurt him.
My eyes are closed but I feel Alanis’s touch on my shoulder as he tries to comfort me.
I don’t need comfort; I need to find him.
“Hey, can you just give blue a couple of days? Can you trust that we will find him? Lenny needs him alive, so you don’t have to worry about him being hurt.’’
I open my eyes and he is looking at me with worried eyes. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how I could possibly sit back and just wait for other people to do what I am responsible for.
“Two days, Beau said he is working on a potion. Just two days.”
I take a deep breath because two days feel like an eternity. Two days, plus the two days that he has been gone. Jabi is in a bad position. I have to figure something out.
“Two days,’’ he repeats again when he notices my hesitation.
My eyes are locked with his as I feel a tear fall down my cheek.
I shake my head and push his hands away.
The wind rushes against the door.
It is like a voice whisper in my mind as the wind whispers in my ears. I stand up and walk out of the room and out of the house. Alanis doesn’t stop me as I feel the wind hit my skin. The goosebumps crawl up to my skin. I walk in the direction of the woods. I don’t know where I am going, I don’t know what the hell I am doing but my legs keep walking. The sky is getting dark, the moon is coming out. I am without the one that makes my nights worthwhile. I walk and walk until my legs are numb. I can’t feel myself anymore. I have been walking for hours now and I don’t know how I lost track of time. I stop, as some sort of animal runs towards me.
My heart is racing and panic spread through my body. I turn around, as the animal takes off and I can swear that that was Jabi’s wolf.
I run over in the direction because I need to find it.
I need to make sure and maybe this is me finally losing my mind but I don’t have any other option.
I don’t know what to do.